Saturday, October 3

Today I am grateful for:

A beautiful sunny day.

My sweetie and our friends working more on the addition. They're getting the roof ready to put shingles on.

I dug the remaining potatoes, and some beets. I've been cooking the beets for freezing. I did some last year and they were good that way.

A phone conversation with my Mom. Even though she was "bored" with everything I had to say (I have nothing to say besides we're working on the house, so even though we're busy, it's boring, right?). It's not like I have anything else to talk to her about, besides what we're doing.

Talking with my trainwreck sister. She's still so hooked on needing to stay in this shitty living situation, because she can't seem to move forward with clearing the shop out. She feels like she can't sell it or leave if she doesn't have it all cleared out, and have all the "good stuff" saved. Well, she's spent all summer working on her garden (which she decided to throw all the vegetables out because she doesn't eat them and can't be bothered to freeze them, or even give them away) instead of clearing. The volume of stuff she has simply cannot be dealt with efficiently, as in somehow organized and sold. Maybe some of it, but she has mountains of clothes and bedding, a lot of which has just been stored in garbage bags for ten years, might have mice or mold, but she can't even throw that out because she would have to go through every bag to make sure there wasn't any jewelry or anything in it. If she were ruthless, she could dump out bags quickly, go through pockets, and just fill the back of her truck and take a load to the dump every day for a month, and that would be a good start, but no. She could have just hauled out stuff, and had a giant sale all summer long, that was just "pay what you feel is fair" instead of having to put prices on everything, but no. It doesn't even matter if she gets money for most of this, tons of it she just finds for free because someone else was throwing it out. She actually has valuable tools from her partner, but she's wanting to sell those all together with the property, (but she can't sell the property because it's full of shit). She just can't move on this. She just lays there and moans about how impossible it is.

It's really sad, because she's utterly dependent on this one guy friend of hers, that most of the time she doesn't even like that much, because he keeps helping her do things like haul water and fix stuff. I don't know why she can't clean out that one room she was talking about, and let him live there rent free in return for his help. I think she's worried that the community will think they're living together, and I know she's hoping to find a "sugar daddy" (yeeach), though at her level of the game, ain't nothin' sweet about those gross old men.

Today I told her that she was worth more than all of this rotting garbage. To just leave it all there, and go find an apartment in town. Let it go.