This is a beautiful "letting go of a relationship" song.

"Eulogy for you and me" by Tanya Davis.

The clock is gonna turn back soon the season is already changing
We said goodbye for the final time and my rom needs rearranging
The sidewalk is full of people and leaves and we're all turning colors
I want more radiance and less green this season is my perfect lover
Long nights for more dreaming short days to fill real and fast
Sweaters for my heart's safe-keeping, for my soul's heating, through the cold of winter to last
The clock is gonna turn back soon i've an eye upon its fixtures
The wall waits patiently for the sun's first rays and the day no one's there to witness
We gave it a good go no i guess we can't exist in this
So i'm gonna celebrate this new year with all the good witches
Little chocolate bars are for little kids
I want a cauldron and the nourishment that comes with it
This broke me down, no i am not fixed yet
I broke myself open for this made a space that you could fit in
Clocks and hearts and time keep going but we didn't
The clock tick tocks and i walk alone like i am used to
I wanted to call your bones home but i didn't get to
Your shoulder a stop over and i guess i had to
I was lonely from no love and you showed me what it could do
You showed me what i would do when i had some but it is not to be with you
And i've been sad enough and i've been mad some but what good does that do
The leaves are not upset that they're leaving their branches
Things change time passes death happens
And what happened surely changed me
And the hereafter is full of sadness that is raw and oh so sweet
Because every time a cold heart thaws it sends a river of tears to nourish the ground
On the way to the sea
I bow my head to praise and remember this
Look up again to greet my days
This is a eulogy for you and me i won't forget
But will let go of this just the same


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Saturday November 7

Today I am grateful for:

Going to town with my sweetie, and getting there and back safely. It DUMPED snow on us today, and now it is very surely winter.

I went to the thrift store, and found a few things. An especially lovely red-satin bound, illustrated copy of "A Christmas Carol".

I also met with a person selling a lovely Tibetan singing bowl, for a very good price.

We picked up groceries, which is good, because now even if it keeps snowing we have food for the week.

Then we had a quiet evening at home, with lots of kitty snuggles. I re-strung a necklace I'd made quite a while ago that the string didn't hold together at the clasp. I'm pretty happy with it.

I had a short phone conversation with my Mom, and she was talking about how my now 18 year old nephew "hasn't discovered girls yet", and I humorously told her that not every young man does. Most of us in the family think he might be gay, and that's fine with us. We love him whatever he discovers. Mom probably will too, but I think she's still kind of hoping he is straight.