Sunday, April 12

[gottawonder]

Today I am grateful for:

For at least today and yesterday, I felt less frustrated and awful than I have the last couple of weeks. I really struggle with how little control I have over things right now. I can't do anything about Corona virus, and having to stay home. I can't do anything about the pottery studio being closed, the little gym being closed, the art gallery, the stores, everything. I can't do anything about not being able to just go out for supper, or walk in a park. I can't do anything about how much snow we still have around here. I can't do anything about my family's personal issues, my goat dying last week, or all the stuff in our yard that can't go anywhere yet, and all the work on our house that might not even happen this year. I can't do much about my sweetie being forced to go back to work in two days, thus exposing him and me to the virus. I can't do a lot about the crazy shit people are posting on Facebook.

All I can do is to take care of my animals, eat, go outside a bit, try to do something that makes me feel okay, try not to panic. After all, this is still life. It's different, but this part counts too.

I rode River again today, and worked on the walk-canter transitions a bit, and he's less worked up about them. We also worked on doing clean halts at the walk and trot. He has a habit of kind of taking his time to halt, and lately he kind of fusses and moves around instead of just halting. So, we worked on that. It was just good to ride, and while you're riding that's all you're thinking about.

My sweetie has been coming with me to ride.

A good phone conversation with my Mom. This has to be so hard for her. She is almost a shut in anyhow, but now she can't get visits from family. I know we're all calling her more, but I know it's not the same.

Watching "Spy Game", which is a great movie. It was filmed at "peak Brad Pitt", and you have to admit he was so pretty back then. I wonder if every day he woke up, looked in the mirror, and said "Damn I am pretty!". One thing about Brad Pitt, is I think he chews gum a lot in his movies. He's always chewing.