Monday, July 13

[gottawonder]

Today I am grateful for:

My sweetie being so understanding. I have to say, I've been so stressed out for the last couple of months that I know I'm often a horrible person to be around. I have been having a hard time sleeping because my husband's work, no matter if he's on day shift or night, hits right at when I normally fall asleep, and has ruined my sleep pattern to the point where I really don't have one any more. I used to go to bed around 4 am, and get up at noon, but since my husband comes home at 6 am, I can't fall asleep, or I wake up, then he doesn't come to bed until nearly 8 am. So I don't fall asleep. Then, I often have to get up at noon to do things, and can't go back to bed. Some days I've been kind of a zombie, spending a whole day trying to nap unsuccessfully. The horrible thing is, I don't just go to bed early that night, because I really am a night owl, and that's when I'm most alert. So then I stay up again, and can't fall asleep until 8 or 9 am again. I'm a wreck, and I don't know what to do. There's no where else to sleep in our house where he won't wake me up when he gets home. Every morning I'm angry and upset that I will waste most of another day trying to sleep, and likely won't get any. Normally my husband works away from home and my normal sleep pattern works fine. He's likely going to have this schedule for a year, and I think I might be ruined from it.

I did go to the barn, had a good ride on River, and enjoyed talking to other people. That's all I got done today besides normal chores for the animals.