Monday, April 12

[gottawonder]

Today I am grateful for:

How much of a difference the longer days makes in my mood.

We took the stuff from that woman's yard to the dump today. There were a few things that maybe someone else could use, so we set them aside (there's an unofficial area where you can leave things that could maybe be used by someone).

We talked to the woman who works at the dump again for awhile, and we caught each other up on all the gossip (not mean-spirited) of the happenings in the area.

She told us that a family we know fairly well (my sweetie helped them on their house and garage building one summer) but haven't seen much of for a couple of years had their son die (probably suicide?) only recently. This hit me especially hard because my nephew took his own life at the age of 15, a long time ago. I feel so much pain for this family, for the loss of their child, but also for the loss of most of their happiness in the future. Maybe they'll do better than we did, but my sister and her husband have never really gotten past the loss of their son. The rest of us too, all are very aware of our nephew's birthday, and the day he died. I think of my nephew often, and the effect his death has had on all of us. He was only four years younger than me, and was more like a brother than a nephew. I spent a fair amount of time at my sister's house growing up playing with my niece and nephew, and we rode the same bus to school.

I don't really know if there's an appropriate way to reach out to these people. Likely not. At least we know, so that we don't run into them somewhere and say something horrible.

Then we went to town to get groceries, which I am truly grateful for.

We came home and watched "The Ides of March" which was supposed to be a political thriller but was kind of dull. It had a hell of a great cast, but there was no real sense of 'thrill'.