Thursday, July 23

Today I am grateful for:

A nice, sunny day in spite of more rain last night.

Though I have a lot of stuff, I am grateful for beautiful things, useful things, entertaining things, nice clothes. Yes, I have too much for my own comfort at times, but I recognize that at the heart of things, I want/need these things to feel safe, to help me know who I am, to feel like I have enough, and because I am romantic, idealistic, and sentimental. At some point I may be able to release the need for so much material reassurance, but for now it's serving a purpose I suppose.

For my animals. I need them too. They are capable of love in a way that people are not. They too, fill a need in me, and hopefully they get something out it that is equal to what I derive of them.

Getting some things done today. It always seems crazy, how much a person actually has to do in a day just to maintain things, much less make any kind of headway on the things beyond what is absolutely necessary. Again, I guess if I could embrace minimalism, I wouldn't have so much work to do, because so much of my work is organizing, cleaning, and caring for material possessions. Even getting rid of things like clothes and books is work.

Another good phone conversation with my trainwreck sister, commiserating over the endlessness of tasks.