Monday, September 20

[gottawonder]

Today I am grateful for:

Gorgeous weather today.

We're starting to get some autumn colors in the trees.

I voted today. I am grateful at how straightforward it was, and that I have the freedom to vote. In many places in the world, people don't get to vote.

I found some more DVDs at the store. I got groceries, which is very nice.

I watched "French Exit" which had one of those frustratingly enigmatic endings, but had lots of fun moments. Michelle Pfieffer is still ridiculously beautiful.

My sweetie is back from visiting his family. It's a little odd that they will now be coming to Alberta again for Uncle K's funeral, but whatever.

I haven't heard any changes for Mom. She's just going to be in the hospital for quite some time now, healing. I'm happier with that than her being at home alone at night. I am trying to process all of this. I think from the hospital she will be going to a care home, because I think it has become apparent to all in our family that she is not safe at home anymore. I am having a very hard time thinking of Mom's little house being sold at some point. She's been there for about 15 years now, and I've come to think of it as a home too; as my destination when I go see family. I'm not even sure where I would stay now, the next time I go see family. You'd think I would stay with one of my many family members, but I'm not sure about that being comfortable. Maybe with my sister E.

This last trip home, it felt like my Mom was mostly gone. I would see small flashes that were her, but I don't know how much she knew me, or remembered anything. It's such a strange thing, for a person to lose themselves like this. How frightening it must be for her.