gottawonder

Today I am grateful for:

I talked to my sister E about my concerns for Mom; that my sister S (one of the people in charge of things for Mom), seemed to be wavering about whether or not Mom should come home, or go to a care facility (which I feel is necessary). I probably got a little hysterical talking to E, but when I talked to S a few days ago, she sounded non-committal, saying "'it was up to the panel, not me".

Well, the panel interviews family as part of their decision, and if my sister S were to say something like "our family is committed to making sure Mom would be safe at home", then that panel would be a lot more likely to say Mom would be fine at home.

I asked E to talk to S, to see if S would seem non-committal to HER. E texted back that S said she thought Mom SHOULD be in care as well. Well, that's not how it seemed to me the last time we talked, but maybe she's had time to think. I am really hoping that when the panel interviews S, that she does the right thing and says that Mom is no longer safe at home, which is the sad truth.

I feel like I might be a little paranoid, but I am VERY worried that Mom will somehow end up back home. I saw how bad things were, and it haunts me.

So, another day shot, worried about Mom. I'll likely only feel a little better when she actually gets placed in a care home. That might take some time, as my sister S said, there IS a process. It isn't quick.

I ended up ordering more seasons of "Breaking Bad"' from our video store. They aren't too expensive any more. I tried tracking some down through the buy and sell, but then people were texting back saying some of the disks were missing, etc., and then I found out that the new cost wasn't much more than what people seemed to want for the seasons used. So, what the heck. Better than finding out some of the episodes won't play or something.

I went to town for groceries, and felt very grateful for being able to buy food.

I went to Winner's and bought a men's hoodie that is a better fit than the oversize ones I typically wear. I wanted one that wouldn't be so sloppy for riding, because the big ones I have are so long that they end up under my butt in a weird way when I ride.

Then I went to see River, and he has some kind of cut inside one of his nostrils. Likely poked himself on a stick out in the bush. There's not much one can do, it wasn't bleeding a lot, and didn't seem to bother him. I told R, and she will keep an eye on it too. We will definitely watch it.

I had a good ride with him. Just nice sometimes to do something positive. Riding allows one to be in the moment.

My sweetie found a room mate, and is settling in at their place. When he gets days off, he's planning to take a few things like his bike (he sets it up as a stationary) and blankets etc. He's trying to get used to getting up so early again (5:30 am). At least there isn't a long commute from his apartment, just a few minutes to work. When he was "'working from home" last winter, he had to drive an hour each way, and still had to wait for the company bus to drive out another 20 minutes to the job site. He wasted almost three hours every day just in transit.

I watched "The Courier", which was a very good movie. Benedict Cumberbatch did a great job of acting (I think he produced this one?), and got to be "not sexy". I'm glad for him, because it must be weird being marketed like a slab of meat. I guess he's done a lot of "less sexy" roles since Sherlock. He's a good actor who has managed to move past that as a selling point.

Hans is doing well. He is getting along well with Jones, but I have to say that Jones is a very social cat. He is the one cat that everyone else likes. He gets to play and snuggle with everyone else, even the cats that want nothing to do with any of the others. I wonder what his secret is.

I feel that Jones is largely responsible for helping Celeste feel safe (she hid for a long time, and would only talk to Jones).

I wonder what Jones would be like if he were human. Some wonderful, universally loved person like Mr. Rogers?