Saturday, October 29
Oct. 30th, 2022 03:37 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
gottawonderToday I am grateful for:
Still very reasonable weather.
That I somehow pulled through the day and made some sense of it.
The contractors did not put the styrofoam in place last night for today's window, in spite of me trying to get them to do it before they left yesterday. That means that today I had to be up fairly early to let them into the house (because I just do not feel comfortable about them coming into the main part of the house while I am in bed. It's creepy.).
The way I am wired though, just meant I couldn't fall asleep, knowing I had to be up in a few hours. So I just sat in bed, kind of half hallucinating.
So I got up to let them in, and could not sleep properly after that because they needed BACK in again in three or four hours. So I just hallucinated again.
I more or less got up just to do my normal chores (it was about the right time for that) when they had to come in the house the second time.
So I fed everyone, etc.
I called Mom today, and she was pretty on the ball. She knew who I was for sure, and she said my Uncle was there at the moment, and they had been looking at photo albums together. She said they had just been talking about some of me with various horses.
She said something that helped me a lot, about the death of one of my child hood ponies. He died very badly, and she helped me feel like it was less my fault. It's interesting, because she is more open sometimes now, than before when I guess you could say "she was all there". A few years ago, we likely wouldn't have talked about that, because she would have remembered what happened.
She also seemed aware of what has been going on with Sister E's husband, the one who had a bacterial infection.
I am very grateful to still be able to have these talks with her, and she generally seems cheerful.
After I did what needed to be done, I tried to sleep for a while. It made the day very weird.
Our super snuggler Celeste was especially cuddly and sweet to me today, and I appreciated it.
Then I got up, and tried to kind of pick up where my day usually is at that time.
At least the contractors aren't coming back until Tuesday, probably. At which point they will be needing to work on the bedroom window. Sigh. I was as proactive as I could be, and INSISTED that today they leave me with the styrofoam insert so that they don't need to come into the house until the afternoon. I will still have to sleep in the living room or something.
I will be so happy to have my life back again when they are done with the windows.
I processed a bunch of carrots and beets, cooked and froze some of them, and cleaned some and put them in the fridge.
I also painted another mandala, in the way that I want to teach it in the upcoming paint night. I wanted to go through the process again, using only the tools that they will use, on the same size of canvas, and to be very present in the process to think about how to explain it, and what kind of things to start with.
Today I learned about the Yaodong Caves in China.
"A yaodong (Chinese: 窰洞; pinyin: yáodòng) or "house cave" is a particular form of earth shelter dwelling common in the Loess Plateau in China's north. They are generally carved out of a hillside or excavated horizontally from a central "sunken courtyard".[1][2]
The earth that surrounds the indoor space serves as an effective insulator, keeping the inside of the structure warm in cold seasons and cool in hot seasons. Consequently, very little heating is required in winter, and in summer, it is as cool as an air-conditioned room.[3]
The history of yaodongs goes back centuries, and they continue to be used. In 2006, an estimated 40 million people in northern China lived in yaodongs."
Forty million people in China live in caves.
Over the course of me doing my nightly fact finding, several times I have come across places like Turkey and China, and a few others that still have a significant number of people who live in caves, often man-made cities dug into fairly soft limestone or sandstone.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Yaodong
Still very reasonable weather.
That I somehow pulled through the day and made some sense of it.
The contractors did not put the styrofoam in place last night for today's window, in spite of me trying to get them to do it before they left yesterday. That means that today I had to be up fairly early to let them into the house (because I just do not feel comfortable about them coming into the main part of the house while I am in bed. It's creepy.).
The way I am wired though, just meant I couldn't fall asleep, knowing I had to be up in a few hours. So I just sat in bed, kind of half hallucinating.
So I got up to let them in, and could not sleep properly after that because they needed BACK in again in three or four hours. So I just hallucinated again.
I more or less got up just to do my normal chores (it was about the right time for that) when they had to come in the house the second time.
So I fed everyone, etc.
I called Mom today, and she was pretty on the ball. She knew who I was for sure, and she said my Uncle was there at the moment, and they had been looking at photo albums together. She said they had just been talking about some of me with various horses.
She said something that helped me a lot, about the death of one of my child hood ponies. He died very badly, and she helped me feel like it was less my fault. It's interesting, because she is more open sometimes now, than before when I guess you could say "she was all there". A few years ago, we likely wouldn't have talked about that, because she would have remembered what happened.
She also seemed aware of what has been going on with Sister E's husband, the one who had a bacterial infection.
I am very grateful to still be able to have these talks with her, and she generally seems cheerful.
After I did what needed to be done, I tried to sleep for a while. It made the day very weird.
Our super snuggler Celeste was especially cuddly and sweet to me today, and I appreciated it.
Then I got up, and tried to kind of pick up where my day usually is at that time.
At least the contractors aren't coming back until Tuesday, probably. At which point they will be needing to work on the bedroom window. Sigh. I was as proactive as I could be, and INSISTED that today they leave me with the styrofoam insert so that they don't need to come into the house until the afternoon. I will still have to sleep in the living room or something.
I will be so happy to have my life back again when they are done with the windows.
I processed a bunch of carrots and beets, cooked and froze some of them, and cleaned some and put them in the fridge.
I also painted another mandala, in the way that I want to teach it in the upcoming paint night. I wanted to go through the process again, using only the tools that they will use, on the same size of canvas, and to be very present in the process to think about how to explain it, and what kind of things to start with.
Today I learned about the Yaodong Caves in China.
"A yaodong (Chinese: 窰洞; pinyin: yáodòng) or "house cave" is a particular form of earth shelter dwelling common in the Loess Plateau in China's north. They are generally carved out of a hillside or excavated horizontally from a central "sunken courtyard".[1][2]
The earth that surrounds the indoor space serves as an effective insulator, keeping the inside of the structure warm in cold seasons and cool in hot seasons. Consequently, very little heating is required in winter, and in summer, it is as cool as an air-conditioned room.[3]
The history of yaodongs goes back centuries, and they continue to be used. In 2006, an estimated 40 million people in northern China lived in yaodongs."
Forty million people in China live in caves.
Over the course of me doing my nightly fact finding, several times I have come across places like Turkey and China, and a few others that still have a significant number of people who live in caves, often man-made cities dug into fairly soft limestone or sandstone.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Yaodong
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Date: 2022-10-31 12:14 am (UTC)So glad you could have that with your Mom, and that is was even really helpful this time too. <3
Grateful you had Celeste today. :)
And bravo and applause on holding firm on boundaries. I hope you are finished with the windows sooner than you hope too. Stuff like that is the worst because it's disruptive of the very basic NEEDS that keep you sane to cope with tumultuous times. Keep taking good care and setting your boundaries as you need!
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Date: 2022-10-31 05:25 am (UTC)At the same time, they do NOT need access to the house while I am in bed. It might be hard on me, but I would rather be up and dressed to let them in than have them wandering around.
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Date: 2022-10-31 05:52 am (UTC)which reminds ME to get TO bed myself!