Wednesday, November 16
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gottawonderToday I am grateful for:
I've been getting better sleep this past while, since the contractors finished installing the windows and don't need to get inside the house all the time. Things just seem to make more sense and are more manageable when you've had sleep.
The contractors will likely be done this week. I know it sounds like I am annoyed on some level by their presence most days, but I think that is just the truth of having people in the house trying to get things done. I will miss seeing daily progress.
We will likely revisit the window frames in the spring.
It wasn't terribly cold today, but there was a ton of wind.
I put blankets back on the mares at home because of that wind, and it is supposed to be colder for a few days.
I didn't HAVE to go to the barn to watch R work with River, (I debated about if it might be risky driving with that wind), but I went anyway.
It was good. She was able to give him the real dewormer at Liberty without too much drama.
I'm glad that her training sessions have been sane and reasonable. I have not been force-fed chakra crystals or any woo woo juice. There has been SOME suggestions made about looking into having someone come and do a meditation with River and I (I responded with polite silence), etc. but it hasn't felt forced.
I can't quite get over the idea of having someone come do a meditation to "work on my issues". These people are not trained therapists. So they dredge up maybe issues from childhood, or other trauma, and what would they do about that? How does that help anyone, other than making you tell a stranger all about your inner issues, and then they what, play a singing bowl for a while, think about a color, and we're all good?
Yes, meditation is nice, but "therapy"? I could pay an actual trained professional the same amount of money for a session, and they would not say they could do a lot to help me in an hour, I would have to commit to going for quite some time.
It might be relaxing to do a meditation with someone, but I wouldn't think a singe session with me and my horse is going to do a lot.
Watching him worked today, I still marvel at the difference between "Summer River" and "Winter River". Summer River is tired, lethargic, uninterested. Winter River is peppy, and more easily distracted, but also more reactive to cues.
Today R talked again about how she still thinks River's slow reaction time etc. in the summer could be related to his being a "shut down" horse, and I keep trying to remind her of how bad his breathing is, and how tired he is in the summer, and how I think THAT is most of the problem. She is thinking that some of his recent improvements are from training alone, but I KNOW that it is in great part because he feels better.
Does she literally not remember what he has been like consistently over the last couple of years?
I am not saying that I won't continue to work on improving things through training, but at some point you just have to accept that there are physical limitations with him in the summer that affect his ability to perform.
I am grateful to have driven safely there and back. The wind made it a little sketchy going there, but had largely died down by the time I drove home.
I came home and had a nice nap.
I learned that in 1943, a dutch warship captain disguised his vessel as a tropical island and managed to escape to Australia, avoiding detection by the Japanese navy and air force.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/HNLMS_Abraham_Crijnssen_(1936)
I've been getting better sleep this past while, since the contractors finished installing the windows and don't need to get inside the house all the time. Things just seem to make more sense and are more manageable when you've had sleep.
The contractors will likely be done this week. I know it sounds like I am annoyed on some level by their presence most days, but I think that is just the truth of having people in the house trying to get things done. I will miss seeing daily progress.
We will likely revisit the window frames in the spring.
It wasn't terribly cold today, but there was a ton of wind.
I put blankets back on the mares at home because of that wind, and it is supposed to be colder for a few days.
I didn't HAVE to go to the barn to watch R work with River, (I debated about if it might be risky driving with that wind), but I went anyway.
It was good. She was able to give him the real dewormer at Liberty without too much drama.
I'm glad that her training sessions have been sane and reasonable. I have not been force-fed chakra crystals or any woo woo juice. There has been SOME suggestions made about looking into having someone come and do a meditation with River and I (I responded with polite silence), etc. but it hasn't felt forced.
I can't quite get over the idea of having someone come do a meditation to "work on my issues". These people are not trained therapists. So they dredge up maybe issues from childhood, or other trauma, and what would they do about that? How does that help anyone, other than making you tell a stranger all about your inner issues, and then they what, play a singing bowl for a while, think about a color, and we're all good?
Yes, meditation is nice, but "therapy"? I could pay an actual trained professional the same amount of money for a session, and they would not say they could do a lot to help me in an hour, I would have to commit to going for quite some time.
It might be relaxing to do a meditation with someone, but I wouldn't think a singe session with me and my horse is going to do a lot.
Watching him worked today, I still marvel at the difference between "Summer River" and "Winter River". Summer River is tired, lethargic, uninterested. Winter River is peppy, and more easily distracted, but also more reactive to cues.
Today R talked again about how she still thinks River's slow reaction time etc. in the summer could be related to his being a "shut down" horse, and I keep trying to remind her of how bad his breathing is, and how tired he is in the summer, and how I think THAT is most of the problem. She is thinking that some of his recent improvements are from training alone, but I KNOW that it is in great part because he feels better.
Does she literally not remember what he has been like consistently over the last couple of years?
I am not saying that I won't continue to work on improving things through training, but at some point you just have to accept that there are physical limitations with him in the summer that affect his ability to perform.
I am grateful to have driven safely there and back. The wind made it a little sketchy going there, but had largely died down by the time I drove home.
I came home and had a nice nap.
I learned that in 1943, a dutch warship captain disguised his vessel as a tropical island and managed to escape to Australia, avoiding detection by the Japanese navy and air force.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/HNLMS_Abraham_Crijnssen_(1936)
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Date: 2022-11-17 04:37 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2022-11-17 11:06 pm (UTC)I value some of the woo woo principles. I understand the value of intention, and how our emotional state affects our interactions. I get how my own sense of self-worth plays into my interactions. How the energy that I bring that day tints everything I do.
While I accept that there are things in my personal life that CERTAINLY manifest as blocks in perfect communication between my horse(s) and I, I can't see meditation fixing that.
Maybe it would be relaxing. That's all I could see coming of it.
It kind of gets to me after a while though, this idea that anything that isn't working perfectly needs an exorcism to get at it's roots. Maybe there is a different explanation too, like...umm...he has breathing problems in the summer.
These people are not professionally trained therapists. They are armed with some crystals and a singing bowl and chakra theory. If I did have deep trauma, that is not the route I would take to deal with it.