Thursday, December 8
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gottawonderToday I am grateful for:
Nice temperatures again today. Very pleasant to be outside.
To still have so much love and affection from animals. I miss our big boy Fatty.
I ended up just feeling really alone today. The lack of empathy from my sisters hurt, and well, there really are no other humans here.
I often feel the lack of close relationships in my life. For whatever reason, I don't have any close friendships, in spite of me being an interesting and caring person. On days like this I just feel it more.
I went to town mainly for my mental health.
I stopped in at the "metaphysical" store in town. I have only been in there one other time a few years ago. It's a nice place, and the owners are kind of hippy biker folks (the other thing they offer is tattoos, and before it was legal you could probably buy weed off of them). It felt a bit like coming home to walk in and they're playing Stevie Nicks un-ironically.
It was nice to talk with them and have some kind of human contact.
Then I stopped in at the pottery studio. It was not my night to work (you're supposed to only work on your class day, mine is Mondays), but they were fine with me being there. I was able to trim a bowl my Sweetie made the last time we were there together, I put some of my things that had dried out too much to trim into a "moist box" to soften them up again for later, and I threw for a while.
It was good to be there, and I've missed it. I haven't been able to go the last two weeks.
Then I got groceries, and once again I am struck by the cost of everything. I feel very deeply for people that are really struggling with the inflation situation. I am very grateful to be able to get groceries, and to be strong enough to do so, have a car, etc.
I learned that concrete is the most abundant human created substance, and because the process of producing it has such a huge carbon footprint, it is an environmental disaster.
https://www.noemamag.com/concrete-built-the-modern-world-now-its-destroying-it/
Nice temperatures again today. Very pleasant to be outside.
To still have so much love and affection from animals. I miss our big boy Fatty.
I ended up just feeling really alone today. The lack of empathy from my sisters hurt, and well, there really are no other humans here.
I often feel the lack of close relationships in my life. For whatever reason, I don't have any close friendships, in spite of me being an interesting and caring person. On days like this I just feel it more.
I went to town mainly for my mental health.
I stopped in at the "metaphysical" store in town. I have only been in there one other time a few years ago. It's a nice place, and the owners are kind of hippy biker folks (the other thing they offer is tattoos, and before it was legal you could probably buy weed off of them). It felt a bit like coming home to walk in and they're playing Stevie Nicks un-ironically.
It was nice to talk with them and have some kind of human contact.
Then I stopped in at the pottery studio. It was not my night to work (you're supposed to only work on your class day, mine is Mondays), but they were fine with me being there. I was able to trim a bowl my Sweetie made the last time we were there together, I put some of my things that had dried out too much to trim into a "moist box" to soften them up again for later, and I threw for a while.
It was good to be there, and I've missed it. I haven't been able to go the last two weeks.
Then I got groceries, and once again I am struck by the cost of everything. I feel very deeply for people that are really struggling with the inflation situation. I am very grateful to be able to get groceries, and to be strong enough to do so, have a car, etc.
I learned that concrete is the most abundant human created substance, and because the process of producing it has such a huge carbon footprint, it is an environmental disaster.
https://www.noemamag.com/concrete-built-the-modern-world-now-its-destroying-it/
