gottawonder

Today I am grateful for:

It is the "first day of Spring", though of course we still have a foot of snow. That said, the temperatures have been a little above freezing, and nice enough that I can get away with a light jacket.

I made it to Roxy's vet appointment with lots of time, but only because I thought it was at 3 pm, when really it was for 3:45. It worked out just fine, I didn't mind waiting.

Well, the lump on her leg is "something". Probably cancer. The test they did today was very rudimentary, and just able to tell that the cells were not okay.

So, we have an appointment for Friday to have the lump removed, and at that time it will be tested, and...I guess we'll go from there.

Sigh.

For now, Roxy is otherwise fine, though she has lost a little weight. She's eating fine and I don't see any signs of pain or lower energy levels.

We went for a walk in town afterwards, around the man-made lake. It was a nice day for it.

Then I picked up some groceries, and I am always grateful for that.

I saw a group of seven or eight deer in a field not far from our place, and they were so lovely. I actually saw all kinds of deer today. I saw one at the park in town (lots of deer in that town because of the creek that goes through it) and two other deer on the drive home.

They're all moving around now that the snow is melting, I guess.

I didn't feel like doing much when I got home. I had to hold myself together to get groceries and drive home, but at home I just felt awful. I did put away the groceries, and I ate, and I talked with my husband for quite a while after he was done work.

I don't know if Roxy's lump is a death sentence, or if it is self-contained and surgery will be the end of it, or if we'll have to do chemo, or if there will be a year or two of reprieve, or what.

She's about ten years old, so not terribly old.

I feel like I was just kind of healing from losing Fatty in December, and this is hitting me kind of hard.

I know there are options, and we'll do what we can, blah blah.

I learned about the Hart Island Project, which seeks to find the identities of the many who were buried there in mass graves without markers (I guess it was like pauper's burials?). This is in Long Island, NY, and the people were buried there by the prison system (contracted labor). Mostly they were unclaimed bodies with no identity.

https://hartisland.net/about