Wednesday, July 12
Jul. 12th, 2023 10:32 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
gottawonderToday I am grateful for:
Getting decent sleep again, so cha-ching!
I did speak with Trainwreck via phone, and we did not tread in the area of how bad her life is.
We did talk about other things, and it's funny. We talked about how the veterinarian in her area passed away suddenly at a fairly young age, which is terrible for the area. It's so hard to get large animal vets willing to live in a very rural area. We talked about the lives of vets for a while, and at some point she just was like "this is so depressing, I can't talk about it anymore".
So I mentioned my feelings about her son, and how messed up his life is. She agreed, but after a certain point she "couldn't deal with that" either.
I guess this is what happens when you just go "la la la la" and plug your ears and avoid difficult subjects your whole life. You don't process those feelings, and you don't really cope. You just go "oh no, this is uncomfortable, and I don't want to feel that way".
I did at least get to talk about me, mainly because I didn't talk about nice things. She always seems willing to let me talk if I am frustrated about the weeds or the mess. I guess she feels better about her own life.
I went to see River, and that at least was a positive, life-affirming event.
A newer client was there for a lesson, and stayed to watch River and I work with R. I am always happy to do this for people, especially new ones, as I know how much it can help to see what someone else is working on.
At the same time, it changes the lesson, because it feels more like a demo, that you are playing to an audience, and the interaction between R and I is not quite as honest as it is when it's just us.
There are times when lessons can get quite personal, and you are in a vulnerable moment as you work through things. The lessons where someone watches can't get to that place.
It's okay sometimes, but really, it's better if it's private. Lessons are a bit like couples therapy.
River did well. We worked on getting liberty circles bigger then smaller, worked on the back cue from behind, and getting the correct lead for the canter from the walk. It's all things we've been working on for a while, but we still need to work on them, so until we nail it all, we're going to keep at it.
I came home and let everyone out for a while, then because Wonder lost her grazing muzzle in the pasture I had to go looking for it, but did not find it because it was getting dark. At least Roxy got some nice time to run around.
I did end up pulling more awful weeds, ones that form stickers later on.
I learned that feral chickens are a huge problem in Bermuda, as there are no natural predators.
https://www.gov.bm/sites/default/files/Feral%20Chicken%20Management%20Plan%20Nov%202013%20-%20secured.pdf
Getting decent sleep again, so cha-ching!
I did speak with Trainwreck via phone, and we did not tread in the area of how bad her life is.
We did talk about other things, and it's funny. We talked about how the veterinarian in her area passed away suddenly at a fairly young age, which is terrible for the area. It's so hard to get large animal vets willing to live in a very rural area. We talked about the lives of vets for a while, and at some point she just was like "this is so depressing, I can't talk about it anymore".
So I mentioned my feelings about her son, and how messed up his life is. She agreed, but after a certain point she "couldn't deal with that" either.
I guess this is what happens when you just go "la la la la" and plug your ears and avoid difficult subjects your whole life. You don't process those feelings, and you don't really cope. You just go "oh no, this is uncomfortable, and I don't want to feel that way".
I did at least get to talk about me, mainly because I didn't talk about nice things. She always seems willing to let me talk if I am frustrated about the weeds or the mess. I guess she feels better about her own life.
I went to see River, and that at least was a positive, life-affirming event.
A newer client was there for a lesson, and stayed to watch River and I work with R. I am always happy to do this for people, especially new ones, as I know how much it can help to see what someone else is working on.
At the same time, it changes the lesson, because it feels more like a demo, that you are playing to an audience, and the interaction between R and I is not quite as honest as it is when it's just us.
There are times when lessons can get quite personal, and you are in a vulnerable moment as you work through things. The lessons where someone watches can't get to that place.
It's okay sometimes, but really, it's better if it's private. Lessons are a bit like couples therapy.
River did well. We worked on getting liberty circles bigger then smaller, worked on the back cue from behind, and getting the correct lead for the canter from the walk. It's all things we've been working on for a while, but we still need to work on them, so until we nail it all, we're going to keep at it.
I came home and let everyone out for a while, then because Wonder lost her grazing muzzle in the pasture I had to go looking for it, but did not find it because it was getting dark. At least Roxy got some nice time to run around.
I did end up pulling more awful weeds, ones that form stickers later on.
I learned that feral chickens are a huge problem in Bermuda, as there are no natural predators.
https://www.gov.bm/sites/default/files/Feral%20Chicken%20Management%20Plan%20Nov%202013%20-%20secured.pdf
