Wednesday, July 10

[gottawonder]

Today I am grateful for:

Things are drying out a little bit. Still a lot of mud, but a little firmer.

My sweetie got the approved septic tank (rented) for the temporary system we need to live in the farm house while we tear down the trailer. He got a friend of ours to haul it and unload it, at a great saving to us.

A good riding lesson on River. We didn't get too carried away with going into full collection and such after a break from lessons, but we did collected trotting over poles in a pattern, which was good.

It was nice to catch up with everyone at the barn. We hadn't said anything about the house to anyone, because we didn't know if it was really going to happen. So, now I got to tell everyone. Also, they didn't know about the ponies.

It was nice to do something that felt like a normal one of my days. My whole life and schedule have been really disrupted for the last few weeks, and it felt good to do something that was part of my normal life.

Going into town to get groceries, and it was oddly nice to do that by myself. Yes, it's nice that my husband is home, but I miss having the autonomy of just getting groceries without having HIM insist on driving the cart, thus being in control of how we move through the store and at his pace, and feeling like I have to check with him what we are buying, and so on. I end up feeling a bit like a kid going shopping with a parent when I'm with him, and it's not great at times. I'm used to being mostly responsible for the groceries, and making those decisions, and choosing my pace, and even BROWSING POINTLESSLY at things like magazines or house wares. Sometimes with him, we move too quickly through the store and don't get several things, because he's too goal-oriented about just being done. He refuses to shop with a list, and he doesn't buy ENOUGH. I like to buy enough so that we only have to shop once a week, since we are half an hour out of town. He shops as if we can always drop in again tomorrow if we run out of milk.

Then, I went to Winners, because I was there by myself!!!! If I was with my husband, there's no fun shopping, or limited to how much he is willing to let me. Just shopping in six different hardware/home repair/lumber stores. I felt so free! Free to just look at things for fun! Free to smell five different fancy soaps with no purpose besides smelling them! Touching all the clothes and opening lipsticks to see the color! Meandering through the whole store and picking up everything!! Checking the shoes for sturdiness and weight. Trying on things. Oh, the sense of utter autonomy! I wasted over an hour in there!

I even drove the car!

That my sweetie took the ponies and goats out to graze.

For good perfume. I know some people hate perfume, but I love a good perfume. It's like a story, with a beginning, a peak, and a finish. To me, the perfume keeps changing as the notes evaporate and develop.