Wednesday, September 27
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gottawonderToday I am grateful for:
Lovely Fall weather.
My Sweetie went to town. Again. He needed MORE THINGS. Something like twice a week he needs MORE THINGS for working on the house.
At least he managed to piggy back our errands this time. He took the truck to town, so he took in some bags of recycling, and picked up the cardboard I need to keep going.
He got the frozen cat food that we have had a hard time tracking down.
He checked the mail, and did get the additional things, some kind of starter strip for the siding that ABSOLUTELY HAD TO HAPPEN TODAY, even though we have a planned trip to the city tomorrow.
Yes. We are going to the city tomorrow, and our main goal is to start looking at wood stoves.
We used to have a fire place in the trailer, which cut down on our heating bill whenever we were consistent in using it, even though it was old and very inefficient.
More than that, I feel that out here in a rural area, we do have winter power outages sometimes. Having a wood stove in the house at such a time would mean I could stay there still, and look after the animals. It would also mean protecting our water tanks and pipes from freezing.
We planned from the beginning on having a wood stove in the basement, and built it accordingly.
We don't plan to buy anything tomorrow, this is just a look and see.
I talked with Trainwreck fairly briefly. She got a new cell phone, so at least she has that when she goes out to her trailer in the middle of nowhere.
It rapidly became just her moaning about how awful she felt. Yet, I can't blame her. If I felt like shit that's likely all I would talk about too.
She then talks about how she's trying to "take care of herself" by sleeping/lying in bed for 16 hours a day.
I was like, umm, yeah. That's actually not good for you at all, in fact it's likely MAKING YOU MORE ILL.
I don't think she's "trying to take care of herself", I think she's just a ruin and can't do anything else easily. That said, it sounds like it isn't really sleeping properly, just drifting in and out of consciousness. She would probably feel a little better if she got up, made a point of having some kind of actual day where she walked or did something, then went to bed and had an actual day/night schedule.
I went to see River, and I went early so I could take him to graze outside his fairly barren pasture for about 45 minutes before my lesson so he could focus. It seemed to help.
We had a lesson today, and the entire focus was trying to translate my freestyle pattern (that I had choreographed and practiced to be performed in the indoor arena) to the larger outdoor arena. Mainly because R really, really wants me to use this pattern to compete with it online for the ILHA (International Liberty Horse Association).
To make this work, I have to take out some of the elements that I thought set our performance apart (as in, more difficult) because the larger space means less connection for now.
He did better with the ridden part today, though still not what I would consider "good".
Overall, I'm frustrated with all of this. We have been working on this pattern all summer INSIDE, and R now insists on doing it OUTSIDE, where the neighbors are mowing their lawn or their dogs are running through the bushes, or the other horses are running around, and there is a bigger area that means more space for him to leave if he wants.
We now have about a week to make this happen, and I'm at the point where I'm just tired of doing it, and then having all the criteria change, and having to change the pattern I've been working on for weeks and weeks, and I just give up.
It's like she wants me to just make a mess of it. It takes up all of our lesson time, I've done it over and over and over and over, I worked on the costume at home, it's just lived in my head all summer, and now this.
My Sweetie was thoughtful enough to find a new fly mask while he was in town, and I have not found River's other mask, so I used to today when I put him back out to pasture.
I came home feeling demoralized and crappy.
We did watch more "The Peripheral" which is good, even though it feels like a pastiche of every other science fiction novel/film of the last twenty years. At least you care about the characters.
I learned about a unit of soldiers called the San Patricios/Saint Patrick's Battalion. They were recent immigrants to America, who chose to fight on the side of Mexico during the Spanish American war.
They were Catholics, mostly Irish, who found that America hated them. Catholics and Irish in general were treated badly in America, their churches often burned. When the joined the American army, they were generally serving under Protestant officers, who also treated them like crap.
Santa Ana appealed to their common religion, and offered them incentives to join Mexico.
When America won, 50 captured members of the San Patricios were flogged/hung in a manner that was brutal and uncommon treatment of deserters at that time. It was straight up revenge.
https://www.smithsonianmag.com/history/mexican-american-war-irish-immigrants-deserted-us-army-fight-against-america-180971713/
https://www.smithsonianmag.com/history/mexican-american-war-irish-immigrants-deserted-us-army-fight-against-america-180971713/
Lovely Fall weather.
My Sweetie went to town. Again. He needed MORE THINGS. Something like twice a week he needs MORE THINGS for working on the house.
At least he managed to piggy back our errands this time. He took the truck to town, so he took in some bags of recycling, and picked up the cardboard I need to keep going.
He got the frozen cat food that we have had a hard time tracking down.
He checked the mail, and did get the additional things, some kind of starter strip for the siding that ABSOLUTELY HAD TO HAPPEN TODAY, even though we have a planned trip to the city tomorrow.
Yes. We are going to the city tomorrow, and our main goal is to start looking at wood stoves.
We used to have a fire place in the trailer, which cut down on our heating bill whenever we were consistent in using it, even though it was old and very inefficient.
More than that, I feel that out here in a rural area, we do have winter power outages sometimes. Having a wood stove in the house at such a time would mean I could stay there still, and look after the animals. It would also mean protecting our water tanks and pipes from freezing.
We planned from the beginning on having a wood stove in the basement, and built it accordingly.
We don't plan to buy anything tomorrow, this is just a look and see.
I talked with Trainwreck fairly briefly. She got a new cell phone, so at least she has that when she goes out to her trailer in the middle of nowhere.
It rapidly became just her moaning about how awful she felt. Yet, I can't blame her. If I felt like shit that's likely all I would talk about too.
She then talks about how she's trying to "take care of herself" by sleeping/lying in bed for 16 hours a day.
I was like, umm, yeah. That's actually not good for you at all, in fact it's likely MAKING YOU MORE ILL.
I don't think she's "trying to take care of herself", I think she's just a ruin and can't do anything else easily. That said, it sounds like it isn't really sleeping properly, just drifting in and out of consciousness. She would probably feel a little better if she got up, made a point of having some kind of actual day where she walked or did something, then went to bed and had an actual day/night schedule.
I went to see River, and I went early so I could take him to graze outside his fairly barren pasture for about 45 minutes before my lesson so he could focus. It seemed to help.
We had a lesson today, and the entire focus was trying to translate my freestyle pattern (that I had choreographed and practiced to be performed in the indoor arena) to the larger outdoor arena. Mainly because R really, really wants me to use this pattern to compete with it online for the ILHA (International Liberty Horse Association).
To make this work, I have to take out some of the elements that I thought set our performance apart (as in, more difficult) because the larger space means less connection for now.
He did better with the ridden part today, though still not what I would consider "good".
Overall, I'm frustrated with all of this. We have been working on this pattern all summer INSIDE, and R now insists on doing it OUTSIDE, where the neighbors are mowing their lawn or their dogs are running through the bushes, or the other horses are running around, and there is a bigger area that means more space for him to leave if he wants.
We now have about a week to make this happen, and I'm at the point where I'm just tired of doing it, and then having all the criteria change, and having to change the pattern I've been working on for weeks and weeks, and I just give up.
It's like she wants me to just make a mess of it. It takes up all of our lesson time, I've done it over and over and over and over, I worked on the costume at home, it's just lived in my head all summer, and now this.
My Sweetie was thoughtful enough to find a new fly mask while he was in town, and I have not found River's other mask, so I used to today when I put him back out to pasture.
I came home feeling demoralized and crappy.
We did watch more "The Peripheral" which is good, even though it feels like a pastiche of every other science fiction novel/film of the last twenty years. At least you care about the characters.
I learned about a unit of soldiers called the San Patricios/Saint Patrick's Battalion. They were recent immigrants to America, who chose to fight on the side of Mexico during the Spanish American war.
They were Catholics, mostly Irish, who found that America hated them. Catholics and Irish in general were treated badly in America, their churches often burned. When the joined the American army, they were generally serving under Protestant officers, who also treated them like crap.
Santa Ana appealed to their common religion, and offered them incentives to join Mexico.
When America won, 50 captured members of the San Patricios were flogged/hung in a manner that was brutal and uncommon treatment of deserters at that time. It was straight up revenge.
https://www.smithsonianmag.com/history/mexican-american-war-irish-immigrants-deserted-us-army-fight-against-america-180971713/
https://www.smithsonianmag.com/history/mexican-american-war-irish-immigrants-deserted-us-army-fight-against-america-180971713/
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Date: 2023-09-28 11:01 pm (UTC)