Wednesday, January 17
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gottawonderToday I am grateful for:
Just trying to claw back to normalcy.
It was a little colder than yesterday, but still well within reasonable expectations for this time of year.
The guy who was supposed to come pump out the septic tank didn't come today, so my husband is maybe going to just pump out the grey water to tide us over, though I didn't end up hearing about that happening.
I talked with Trainwreck for a while when I was sitting with the goats (I let them out of their pen inside the garage when I do chores to let them stretch their legs, but I stay with them to keep them out of trouble). She was still mostly talking about herself, but I suppose her health is awful enough that it's all she cares about right now.
It is truly awful, because lots of times I talk to her, and her breathing is so bad she's not getting enough oxygen to do anything, and she just sits there all the time trying to breathe, or she's just drifting in and out of consciousness.
That said, is this TRUE, because two weeks ago she somehow found the strength to haul carloads of crap out of her trailer to town.
Two weeks ago she said she had no clothes. Today she says she has too many clothes, and they're lying all over the place. Which is true?
She's brow-beaten her doctor into giving her powerful antibiotics again, she's on them more or less constantly because she's got it in her head that she's got a virus. So, I said, um, you know that antibiotics won't do anything to help a virus? Then she's like "I also have an infection".
Okay.
I get it. She's just half dead, not able to breathe, so if the pills make her feel like she's doing something, then fine. Who cares.
If any of you reading this still smoke, or have problems with alcohol (yes, alcohol can ruin your lungs too) JUST STOP IT. Dying this way from damaged lungs is awful, and so very slow.
Then I went to see River, and while my head wasn't in the game today, I still tried.
I felt kind of frustrated because we keep going back to do things that should be more polished by now, but they aren't. With our Liberty circles, he does okay with them, but has issues with not being steady in his rhythm or being forward enough. So his trot can be slow, or he can break gait and walk. So we have to work on that. Sometimes at the trot he breaks into a half canter, so we have to work on clarity in our cues.
Back and forth on clarity, and being forward but in the correct gait.
Then in the ridden work, today he didn't want to bend to get nice, round circles again. Sigh.
He's being a good horse and behaving, but somehow we're not getting things clear together.
R was joking around with me when I said "I might stink because I'm not able to wash right now", because really, it's -20 C and I'm wearing five layers of clothes, and we're in a barn. If she can smell me we're both in trouble.
It was still good to get out and DO something. I've been cooped up for far too long, with too many sad or stressful things happening.
When I got home, my husband said he looked into the septic tank, and he doesn't know why the "full" alarm went off, because it is NOT full. I don't know what's going on, but he says he's still going to get it pumped out and checked by the septic guy (now we're back to the septic guy doing it, instead of my husband?) and try to figure out if it's all working or not.
Anyhow, we both had a hot bath (yay for not stinking) and he did the dishes.
I learned about the Zveno Project, Russia used really big bomber planes to carry several little bitty fighter planes into battle. Small fighter planes were agile, but could not carry enough fuel to get to the fighting. Big bombers could carry lots of fuel and could travel long distances, could deliver a really big bomb, but were not agile. So this was a way of delivering a really big bomb, as well as agile fighter planes to an area.
https://youtu.be/IjCylxs8hZU?si=q2HQkqzhI-XBlLEc
Just trying to claw back to normalcy.
It was a little colder than yesterday, but still well within reasonable expectations for this time of year.
The guy who was supposed to come pump out the septic tank didn't come today, so my husband is maybe going to just pump out the grey water to tide us over, though I didn't end up hearing about that happening.
I talked with Trainwreck for a while when I was sitting with the goats (I let them out of their pen inside the garage when I do chores to let them stretch their legs, but I stay with them to keep them out of trouble). She was still mostly talking about herself, but I suppose her health is awful enough that it's all she cares about right now.
It is truly awful, because lots of times I talk to her, and her breathing is so bad she's not getting enough oxygen to do anything, and she just sits there all the time trying to breathe, or she's just drifting in and out of consciousness.
That said, is this TRUE, because two weeks ago she somehow found the strength to haul carloads of crap out of her trailer to town.
Two weeks ago she said she had no clothes. Today she says she has too many clothes, and they're lying all over the place. Which is true?
She's brow-beaten her doctor into giving her powerful antibiotics again, she's on them more or less constantly because she's got it in her head that she's got a virus. So, I said, um, you know that antibiotics won't do anything to help a virus? Then she's like "I also have an infection".
Okay.
I get it. She's just half dead, not able to breathe, so if the pills make her feel like she's doing something, then fine. Who cares.
If any of you reading this still smoke, or have problems with alcohol (yes, alcohol can ruin your lungs too) JUST STOP IT. Dying this way from damaged lungs is awful, and so very slow.
Then I went to see River, and while my head wasn't in the game today, I still tried.
I felt kind of frustrated because we keep going back to do things that should be more polished by now, but they aren't. With our Liberty circles, he does okay with them, but has issues with not being steady in his rhythm or being forward enough. So his trot can be slow, or he can break gait and walk. So we have to work on that. Sometimes at the trot he breaks into a half canter, so we have to work on clarity in our cues.
Back and forth on clarity, and being forward but in the correct gait.
Then in the ridden work, today he didn't want to bend to get nice, round circles again. Sigh.
He's being a good horse and behaving, but somehow we're not getting things clear together.
R was joking around with me when I said "I might stink because I'm not able to wash right now", because really, it's -20 C and I'm wearing five layers of clothes, and we're in a barn. If she can smell me we're both in trouble.
It was still good to get out and DO something. I've been cooped up for far too long, with too many sad or stressful things happening.
When I got home, my husband said he looked into the septic tank, and he doesn't know why the "full" alarm went off, because it is NOT full. I don't know what's going on, but he says he's still going to get it pumped out and checked by the septic guy (now we're back to the septic guy doing it, instead of my husband?) and try to figure out if it's all working or not.
Anyhow, we both had a hot bath (yay for not stinking) and he did the dishes.
I learned about the Zveno Project, Russia used really big bomber planes to carry several little bitty fighter planes into battle. Small fighter planes were agile, but could not carry enough fuel to get to the fighting. Big bombers could carry lots of fuel and could travel long distances, could deliver a really big bomb, but were not agile. So this was a way of delivering a really big bomb, as well as agile fighter planes to an area.
https://youtu.be/IjCylxs8hZU?si=q2HQkqzhI-XBlLEc
