Sunday, March 3
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gottawonderToday I am grateful for:
My sweet animals.
Another more or less wasted day, feeling lost as far as the house. We haven't done much on it this last couple of weeks, I feel the slide back into complacency happening. After the last time I got upset about the lack of progress, and then a bit of progress, then "oh, I don't want to do anything this weekend/today".
Yes, there have been other distractions/valid side projects like needing to deal with the snow blower, then the snow. I get it. All week that's been the focus, rather than anything forward on the house.
I just get that "looming, walls closing in on me" feeling, looking around me and wondering if I will still be looking at cracks in the plaster walls in five years, or still having discussions about how to approach the bedroom floor.
I'm rather tired of spending my days feeling upset about the house, and I wonder how to move on. Just stop caring? I'm not really part of the solution either, am I.
I would like to say that I'm doing what I can about it, but I'm not. I'm so tired of it that I can't muster the motivation to even bother, because the amount that needs to be done is just overwhelming.
We did go see River, and that was okay. He did well with our work overall.
It was pretty cold, though.
We came home, and it was already too late to watch anything, as my husband needs to go to bed early for work, so that was it for the day.
Trainwreck wanted to talk, but you know, I don't know if I do anymore. Not today, anyhow, since I already just felt like crap. Every time I talk to her, she's got something going on like a plot to get the directors of the Lodge to allow alcohol in the common area, or she wants to go back to her (not hers anymore) trailer and bring back more stuff, or how she's just "got this flu right now" (she's dying slowly from alcohol and smoking damage to her body and won't admit it).
I know that nothing going on with her should bother me, but it does. I would probably not choose to talk with her if she weren't my sister, yet here we are.
I don't hate her. Far from it. It's just always disturbing, and I can't do anything about it. Yet, I don't seem to have the option of not knowing, either.
Uzbekistan is a "doubly landlocked" country, meaning not only is it landlocked, but it is surrounded by countries that are also landlocked.
Like many of the other Stans, Uzbekistan was part of the Persian Empire, then conquered by Alexander the Great, then the Mongols.
The great military leader Tamerlane or Timur was born in Uzbekistan in 1336, (to 1405) and established the Timurid Empire (by established, I mean killed millions of people. Killed em hard.)
In spite of being a stone cold killer, he also had a soft spot for the arts, and was responsible for a renaissance of wonderful art and culture, and flourishing of the sciences.
He was laid to rest in the Uzbekistan city of Samarkand in a fabulous tomb.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Timur
Great video that shows the tomb: https://youtu.be/c2L2U32-BvQ?si=cMASsJKkWcUrG6al
"By the beginning of 1920, Central Asia was firmly in the hands of Russia and, despite some early resistance to the Bolsheviks, Uzbekistan and the rest of Central Asia became a part of the Soviet Union. On 27 October 1924 the Uzbek Soviet Socialist Republic was created. From 1941 to 1945, during World War II, 1,433,230 people from Uzbekistan fought in the Red Army against Nazi Germany. A number also fought on the German side. As many as 263,005 Uzbek soldiers died in the battlefields of the Eastern Front, and 32,670 went missing in action.[38]"
Like the other Stans, Uzbekistan declared independence in 1990 when the U.S.S.R. collapsed.
Uzbekistan showed some support to Ukraine recently with increasing it's imports of beef.
"Uzbekistan is a secular state, with a presidential constitutional government in place. Uzbekistan comprises 12 regions (vilayats), Tashkent City, and one autonomous republic, Karakalpakstan. While non-governmental organisations have defined Uzbekistan as "an authoritarian state with limited civil rights",[15][2] significant reforms under Uzbekistan's second president, Shavkat Mirziyoyev, have been made following the death of the first president, Islam Karimov. Owing to these reforms, relations with the neighbouring countries of Kyrgyzstan, Tajikistan, and Afghanistan have drastically improved.[16][17][18][19] A United Nations report of 2020 found much progress toward achieving the UN's Sustainable Development Goals.[20]"
Isn't that weird? Inside Uzbekistan, there's a good-sized autonomous republic (Karakalpakstan).
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Karakalpakstan
Uzbekistan had part of the Aral sea within it's borders (or the shoreline?), but the Aral Sea is famously almost completely gone now, leaving a dead salt pan behind full of the ruins of fishing ships. The small part that is left is within the borders of Uzbekistan, and continues to be used to irrigate cotton fields (which is kind of why it's all gone in the first place).
Uzbekistan also grows a lot of cotton, and has a lot of natural gas, as well as copper and gold mines. With the enormous power generators put there by Russia, it still generates and exports a lot of electricity from natural gas.
Straight up awful for human rights. Just awful. Pretty much the bottom of the pile.
Just killing people, no protection of civil rights, torture and unlawful detention, forced sterilization of rural Uzbek women, and slavery (estimated 1.2 million people, mostly working in cotton fields).
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Uzbekistan
My sweet animals.
Another more or less wasted day, feeling lost as far as the house. We haven't done much on it this last couple of weeks, I feel the slide back into complacency happening. After the last time I got upset about the lack of progress, and then a bit of progress, then "oh, I don't want to do anything this weekend/today".
Yes, there have been other distractions/valid side projects like needing to deal with the snow blower, then the snow. I get it. All week that's been the focus, rather than anything forward on the house.
I just get that "looming, walls closing in on me" feeling, looking around me and wondering if I will still be looking at cracks in the plaster walls in five years, or still having discussions about how to approach the bedroom floor.
I'm rather tired of spending my days feeling upset about the house, and I wonder how to move on. Just stop caring? I'm not really part of the solution either, am I.
I would like to say that I'm doing what I can about it, but I'm not. I'm so tired of it that I can't muster the motivation to even bother, because the amount that needs to be done is just overwhelming.
We did go see River, and that was okay. He did well with our work overall.
It was pretty cold, though.
We came home, and it was already too late to watch anything, as my husband needs to go to bed early for work, so that was it for the day.
Trainwreck wanted to talk, but you know, I don't know if I do anymore. Not today, anyhow, since I already just felt like crap. Every time I talk to her, she's got something going on like a plot to get the directors of the Lodge to allow alcohol in the common area, or she wants to go back to her (not hers anymore) trailer and bring back more stuff, or how she's just "got this flu right now" (she's dying slowly from alcohol and smoking damage to her body and won't admit it).
I know that nothing going on with her should bother me, but it does. I would probably not choose to talk with her if she weren't my sister, yet here we are.
I don't hate her. Far from it. It's just always disturbing, and I can't do anything about it. Yet, I don't seem to have the option of not knowing, either.
Uzbekistan is a "doubly landlocked" country, meaning not only is it landlocked, but it is surrounded by countries that are also landlocked.
Like many of the other Stans, Uzbekistan was part of the Persian Empire, then conquered by Alexander the Great, then the Mongols.
The great military leader Tamerlane or Timur was born in Uzbekistan in 1336, (to 1405) and established the Timurid Empire (by established, I mean killed millions of people. Killed em hard.)
In spite of being a stone cold killer, he also had a soft spot for the arts, and was responsible for a renaissance of wonderful art and culture, and flourishing of the sciences.
He was laid to rest in the Uzbekistan city of Samarkand in a fabulous tomb.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Timur
Great video that shows the tomb: https://youtu.be/c2L2U32-BvQ?si=cMASsJKkWcUrG6al
"By the beginning of 1920, Central Asia was firmly in the hands of Russia and, despite some early resistance to the Bolsheviks, Uzbekistan and the rest of Central Asia became a part of the Soviet Union. On 27 October 1924 the Uzbek Soviet Socialist Republic was created. From 1941 to 1945, during World War II, 1,433,230 people from Uzbekistan fought in the Red Army against Nazi Germany. A number also fought on the German side. As many as 263,005 Uzbek soldiers died in the battlefields of the Eastern Front, and 32,670 went missing in action.[38]"
Like the other Stans, Uzbekistan declared independence in 1990 when the U.S.S.R. collapsed.
Uzbekistan showed some support to Ukraine recently with increasing it's imports of beef.
"Uzbekistan is a secular state, with a presidential constitutional government in place. Uzbekistan comprises 12 regions (vilayats), Tashkent City, and one autonomous republic, Karakalpakstan. While non-governmental organisations have defined Uzbekistan as "an authoritarian state with limited civil rights",[15][2] significant reforms under Uzbekistan's second president, Shavkat Mirziyoyev, have been made following the death of the first president, Islam Karimov. Owing to these reforms, relations with the neighbouring countries of Kyrgyzstan, Tajikistan, and Afghanistan have drastically improved.[16][17][18][19] A United Nations report of 2020 found much progress toward achieving the UN's Sustainable Development Goals.[20]"
Isn't that weird? Inside Uzbekistan, there's a good-sized autonomous republic (Karakalpakstan).
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Karakalpakstan
Uzbekistan had part of the Aral sea within it's borders (or the shoreline?), but the Aral Sea is famously almost completely gone now, leaving a dead salt pan behind full of the ruins of fishing ships. The small part that is left is within the borders of Uzbekistan, and continues to be used to irrigate cotton fields (which is kind of why it's all gone in the first place).
Uzbekistan also grows a lot of cotton, and has a lot of natural gas, as well as copper and gold mines. With the enormous power generators put there by Russia, it still generates and exports a lot of electricity from natural gas.
Straight up awful for human rights. Just awful. Pretty much the bottom of the pile.
Just killing people, no protection of civil rights, torture and unlawful detention, forced sterilization of rural Uzbek women, and slavery (estimated 1.2 million people, mostly working in cotton fields).
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Uzbekistan
