Monday, July 15
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gottawonderToday I am grateful for:
I got the rest of our hay delivered, which means that's one thing done before winter that I no longer have to worry about. I'm glad that this year there was none of the usual worry over whether or not there was going to be enough hay, or too wet, or too dry, etc. There were good conditions this year and very little drama.
Having the means to pay for the hay. This stuff ain't cheap. The price of hay has tripled since we moved here, though that has been a while.
That he had no problem getting in the barn, even though there are a lot of square bales in there right now.
After that was done, I felt like just relaxing for a while, so I read and had a nap. It's nice to have a moment without that free floating anxiety that "I need to be productive".
My husband called mid afternoon (it was late evening there, and he'd had a whole day of meetings). He told me about his first day of meetings, in a tiny conference room in a trailer by the lithium battery facility. The meetings were about learning from their process of building the facility, mostly (it's not quite finished, almost). That was his WHOLE DAY. They didn't hardly even go outside until later in the evening, when they went out to eat at a pretty unremarkable restaurant.
I finished the novel I WAS reading (Manhattan Beach, which was good, but felt like it was trying too hard to be too many things), and started "Paper Towns", which feels a little young but whatever.
I had quite a nice afternoon snuggling with the kitties. I have to say, if you enjoy snuggles, it's tough to beat a nice cat. Dogs are nice too, but are often a little "lick-y".
I like dogs a lot for their companionship outside.
I spoke with Trainwreck, which was okay. She always says I take offense easily, but it's like this:
Today's example of me being "snippy". She chooses to bring up the topic of Sister S, whose son and his wife and kids moved from the same town Sister S lives, to one about an hour away from her. This means it will be difficult for her to see the grand kids.
Trainwreck starts to speculate about our nephew's wife being controlling, and not really liking Sister S as her Mother in law (which I think is part of the issue, yes).
I try not to add to this speculation, because I know very little about our nephew's wife, or her motives, or anything about their recent move and why they did it. My comments are non-committal, and along the lines of "maybe she wanted to be closer to her family" or "they might have made money selling their house" or just whatever.
Trainwreck senses my lack of wanting to gossip about things I know nothing about, so she blurts out "I DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT THIS ANY MORE". To which I reply, not unkindly "Ok. You brought it up, we can stop". So she makes her usual noise that indicates that I've been "snippy" with her.
Then Trainwreck talks about Sister L not giving Trainwreck food from her garden, or asking her to come pick berries. She's miffed that Sister L has not given her fresh baby potatoes. THEN, Trainwreck says "not that I actually eat anything like that, I just like HAVING it". So, I suggested that maybe Sister L knows that Trainwreck isn't eating a lot these days and doesn't want her garden produce wasted?
There I go again, being snippy.
Then she talks about a young girl, maybe 14 or so that was "walking around in her swim suit without covering up" (the public pool is right beside the Lodge where Trainwreck lives). Trainwreck says that all the "dirty old men" were staring at this girl, and "that girl needs to be aware that men are staring at her body".
All of this is likely Trainwreck going back to her youth, when apparently she was a victim of all kinds of predators (not that she is ever specific, she just says things like "getting pawed by dirty old men all the time".
I suggested that maybe this young girl wasn't really doing anything wrong by walking home in her swim suit, that it was everyone else who should maybe not sexualize her body.
So, my sister just kept blustering on about how it wasn't safe for this girl, predators are everywhere, and she "knew she was attracting attention with her body".
I don't know what part of all of this was really this girl's problem. It sounds more like my sister's issues.
I'm always on the fence about how a woman should dress to be "decent", and whether or not it's a woman's responsibility to cover herself, or whether it's maybe everyone else's job to mind their own business.
I get what my sister is saying about predators, and I don't disagree with her, but overall it just sounded like this young girl was attractive and my sister was bothered by that.
Anyhow, so we did continue to have a conversation about my husband being in Sweden, and of course my sister has to make a comment about him "not enjoying himself TOO much, like with all those Swedish women, you know". Well, what would I be able to do about it if he did?
What would he be able to do about it if I chose to cheat on him while he was away? I'm sure it wouldn't be difficult at all if that's the kind of person I was. He could also cheat on me right here in Canada if he were so inclined, and I probably wouldn't find out.
It's kind of a pointless topic, and really, she just brought it up because it would bother me. Sigh.
Not sure really, what incentive there is to talk to her at all, and I find myself questioning my decision to do so, since it very rarely seems worth it. I just get lonely. Every now and then we have a good phone call, so I hold out hope that each time this one might be okay.
I did a few small things like folded laundry and washing another load. Then in the evening when it was a bit cooler I went outside and let everyone out into their pastures, put the water on the garden, and pulled grass and weeds out of an area that is mulched with cedar chips, but doesn't really seem very effective overall in blocking weeds.
I worked with Dandy a little bit, and he's really staying with me at Liberty.
I got the rest of our hay delivered, which means that's one thing done before winter that I no longer have to worry about. I'm glad that this year there was none of the usual worry over whether or not there was going to be enough hay, or too wet, or too dry, etc. There were good conditions this year and very little drama.
Having the means to pay for the hay. This stuff ain't cheap. The price of hay has tripled since we moved here, though that has been a while.
That he had no problem getting in the barn, even though there are a lot of square bales in there right now.
After that was done, I felt like just relaxing for a while, so I read and had a nap. It's nice to have a moment without that free floating anxiety that "I need to be productive".
My husband called mid afternoon (it was late evening there, and he'd had a whole day of meetings). He told me about his first day of meetings, in a tiny conference room in a trailer by the lithium battery facility. The meetings were about learning from their process of building the facility, mostly (it's not quite finished, almost). That was his WHOLE DAY. They didn't hardly even go outside until later in the evening, when they went out to eat at a pretty unremarkable restaurant.
I finished the novel I WAS reading (Manhattan Beach, which was good, but felt like it was trying too hard to be too many things), and started "Paper Towns", which feels a little young but whatever.
I had quite a nice afternoon snuggling with the kitties. I have to say, if you enjoy snuggles, it's tough to beat a nice cat. Dogs are nice too, but are often a little "lick-y".
I like dogs a lot for their companionship outside.
I spoke with Trainwreck, which was okay. She always says I take offense easily, but it's like this:
Today's example of me being "snippy". She chooses to bring up the topic of Sister S, whose son and his wife and kids moved from the same town Sister S lives, to one about an hour away from her. This means it will be difficult for her to see the grand kids.
Trainwreck starts to speculate about our nephew's wife being controlling, and not really liking Sister S as her Mother in law (which I think is part of the issue, yes).
I try not to add to this speculation, because I know very little about our nephew's wife, or her motives, or anything about their recent move and why they did it. My comments are non-committal, and along the lines of "maybe she wanted to be closer to her family" or "they might have made money selling their house" or just whatever.
Trainwreck senses my lack of wanting to gossip about things I know nothing about, so she blurts out "I DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT THIS ANY MORE". To which I reply, not unkindly "Ok. You brought it up, we can stop". So she makes her usual noise that indicates that I've been "snippy" with her.
Then Trainwreck talks about Sister L not giving Trainwreck food from her garden, or asking her to come pick berries. She's miffed that Sister L has not given her fresh baby potatoes. THEN, Trainwreck says "not that I actually eat anything like that, I just like HAVING it". So, I suggested that maybe Sister L knows that Trainwreck isn't eating a lot these days and doesn't want her garden produce wasted?
There I go again, being snippy.
Then she talks about a young girl, maybe 14 or so that was "walking around in her swim suit without covering up" (the public pool is right beside the Lodge where Trainwreck lives). Trainwreck says that all the "dirty old men" were staring at this girl, and "that girl needs to be aware that men are staring at her body".
All of this is likely Trainwreck going back to her youth, when apparently she was a victim of all kinds of predators (not that she is ever specific, she just says things like "getting pawed by dirty old men all the time".
I suggested that maybe this young girl wasn't really doing anything wrong by walking home in her swim suit, that it was everyone else who should maybe not sexualize her body.
So, my sister just kept blustering on about how it wasn't safe for this girl, predators are everywhere, and she "knew she was attracting attention with her body".
I don't know what part of all of this was really this girl's problem. It sounds more like my sister's issues.
I'm always on the fence about how a woman should dress to be "decent", and whether or not it's a woman's responsibility to cover herself, or whether it's maybe everyone else's job to mind their own business.
I get what my sister is saying about predators, and I don't disagree with her, but overall it just sounded like this young girl was attractive and my sister was bothered by that.
Anyhow, so we did continue to have a conversation about my husband being in Sweden, and of course my sister has to make a comment about him "not enjoying himself TOO much, like with all those Swedish women, you know". Well, what would I be able to do about it if he did?
What would he be able to do about it if I chose to cheat on him while he was away? I'm sure it wouldn't be difficult at all if that's the kind of person I was. He could also cheat on me right here in Canada if he were so inclined, and I probably wouldn't find out.
It's kind of a pointless topic, and really, she just brought it up because it would bother me. Sigh.
Not sure really, what incentive there is to talk to her at all, and I find myself questioning my decision to do so, since it very rarely seems worth it. I just get lonely. Every now and then we have a good phone call, so I hold out hope that each time this one might be okay.
I did a few small things like folded laundry and washing another load. Then in the evening when it was a bit cooler I went outside and let everyone out into their pastures, put the water on the garden, and pulled grass and weeds out of an area that is mulched with cedar chips, but doesn't really seem very effective overall in blocking weeds.
I worked with Dandy a little bit, and he's really staying with me at Liberty.
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