Friday, August 30
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gottawonderToday I am grateful for:
Nice temperatures, on the cooler side. This means fewer mosquitoes.
Our sweet animals, and how much it means to me to have so many happy snuggle buddies. The two mini ponies are the perfect size for me to bend over them and hug them like giant stuffed animals. They are getting a bit of winter hair already, and feel soft and velvety.
That my husband is often very supportive of me.
What does make me a bit sad, is that he is probably the only person I can really count on. It's good to have that person, but it's sad to only have one person in the whole world who actually has your back.
When I talked to Trainwreck today, she was ALL ABOUT HERSELF, and when I spoke for even a moment about how tired I was of all the recent tedious things we've been dealing with like trying to get building permits and sorting out selling the XTerra and the horrible tedium of dealing with the telephone company, she just cut me off and literally said "I don't care".
So. Last week she was lying in bed in the hospital, and would have died but for me caring enough to make one more phone call to her sons to try to help her, and she's right back to being arrogant and "fine", and doesn't care about my day to day life.
If I had to guess, she was probably drinking. She mentioned being outside with her friends at the lodge, and those people are all alcoholics, and their afternoon routine always used to be sitting outside and drinking together. So maybe that's why she wanted me off the phone.
Well, that's her choice to make. No one can stop her.
I felt like crap, though. No one likes to feel that unwanted.
Yet, my husband took some time to talk to me on the phone, and made me feel better, and then I took some time to reflect about the loving and generous nature of the animals in my life.
I love how open and affectionate our cats are, every one of them. I love how Roxy adores us, and even with her current issues with her knees, she is happy and always wants cuddles. Our goats and ponies and Wonder and River all love attention.
My sister just sucks. It's not me, it's her. She just sucks.
I went to the barn to see River, and I kind of forgot that I would be working with another horse in the girl with some challenges's lesson. I was a bit late, and only worked with River for about half an hour, but did okay with that time.
R was away visiting with her Mom, so her husband K did the lesson with the young woman. You can tell that K is not the same kind of focused person that R is, and his lesson was pretty loose and the pony that the young woman rides was trying little things to see if he could get away with them, and so was the young woman (things like pulling too hard on the reins instead of using her legs and so on, but I caught it and corrected her).
So, my "work" with Maverick was hampered by K using up the entire arena for obstacles, because obstacles are an easy way to eat up lesson time when you don't know what else to do with this young woman. I still did some yields and so on in the limited space we had.
Then we walked around the property, which this young woman loves. Just to be led all over the yard for about half an hour.
L, R's teen daughter is now in grade 12. Nearly an adult, and I know that R and K are getting that "our baby is all grown up" sadness. I don't know if L has much for plans after school, though it sounds like she may still live at home for a while. She doesn't seem that eager to "go out into the world" on her own.
I reflected on how much of my experience of being at the riding barn is about being around other people, and how nice R and her family are to be around. I know I'm paying to be there, but they are still a very high quality of people to spend time with. Conscientious, polite, and nice.
The horses did get moved from the bald pasture back to the other one that hopefully had time to grow a bit more food.
I came home and my Sweetie got there about the same time. I let everyone out for a while, and we did a gentle walk around the yard with Roxy, mindful of her legs, and then put her in the house and we went for a longer walk out on the road.
Then we watched more "Justified".
Nice temperatures, on the cooler side. This means fewer mosquitoes.
Our sweet animals, and how much it means to me to have so many happy snuggle buddies. The two mini ponies are the perfect size for me to bend over them and hug them like giant stuffed animals. They are getting a bit of winter hair already, and feel soft and velvety.
That my husband is often very supportive of me.
What does make me a bit sad, is that he is probably the only person I can really count on. It's good to have that person, but it's sad to only have one person in the whole world who actually has your back.
When I talked to Trainwreck today, she was ALL ABOUT HERSELF, and when I spoke for even a moment about how tired I was of all the recent tedious things we've been dealing with like trying to get building permits and sorting out selling the XTerra and the horrible tedium of dealing with the telephone company, she just cut me off and literally said "I don't care".
So. Last week she was lying in bed in the hospital, and would have died but for me caring enough to make one more phone call to her sons to try to help her, and she's right back to being arrogant and "fine", and doesn't care about my day to day life.
If I had to guess, she was probably drinking. She mentioned being outside with her friends at the lodge, and those people are all alcoholics, and their afternoon routine always used to be sitting outside and drinking together. So maybe that's why she wanted me off the phone.
Well, that's her choice to make. No one can stop her.
I felt like crap, though. No one likes to feel that unwanted.
Yet, my husband took some time to talk to me on the phone, and made me feel better, and then I took some time to reflect about the loving and generous nature of the animals in my life.
I love how open and affectionate our cats are, every one of them. I love how Roxy adores us, and even with her current issues with her knees, she is happy and always wants cuddles. Our goats and ponies and Wonder and River all love attention.
My sister just sucks. It's not me, it's her. She just sucks.
I went to the barn to see River, and I kind of forgot that I would be working with another horse in the girl with some challenges's lesson. I was a bit late, and only worked with River for about half an hour, but did okay with that time.
R was away visiting with her Mom, so her husband K did the lesson with the young woman. You can tell that K is not the same kind of focused person that R is, and his lesson was pretty loose and the pony that the young woman rides was trying little things to see if he could get away with them, and so was the young woman (things like pulling too hard on the reins instead of using her legs and so on, but I caught it and corrected her).
So, my "work" with Maverick was hampered by K using up the entire arena for obstacles, because obstacles are an easy way to eat up lesson time when you don't know what else to do with this young woman. I still did some yields and so on in the limited space we had.
Then we walked around the property, which this young woman loves. Just to be led all over the yard for about half an hour.
L, R's teen daughter is now in grade 12. Nearly an adult, and I know that R and K are getting that "our baby is all grown up" sadness. I don't know if L has much for plans after school, though it sounds like she may still live at home for a while. She doesn't seem that eager to "go out into the world" on her own.
I reflected on how much of my experience of being at the riding barn is about being around other people, and how nice R and her family are to be around. I know I'm paying to be there, but they are still a very high quality of people to spend time with. Conscientious, polite, and nice.
The horses did get moved from the bald pasture back to the other one that hopefully had time to grow a bit more food.
I came home and my Sweetie got there about the same time. I let everyone out for a while, and we did a gentle walk around the yard with Roxy, mindful of her legs, and then put her in the house and we went for a longer walk out on the road.
Then we watched more "Justified".
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Date: 2024-09-01 07:04 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2024-09-02 08:54 am (UTC)At least my Sweetie has been fairly consistent recently with trying to get the tiling in the basement done.