Thursday, November 28
Nov. 28th, 2024 11:29 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
gottawonderToday I am grateful for:
Getting good sleep.
Not needing to go anywhere today.
I tried to talk with Mom for a while, but she was anxious the whole time about missing supper. She wouldn't miss supper, the people that work there would make sure she got to the table on time, but I know that Mom doesn't have much of a sense of time anymore, so she's never sure what's happening around her.
I did talk with Trainwreck for a good while, and she still sounds sober, but in a way she still sounds like an alcoholic, if you know what I mean. She still has the mentality that somehow she had no power to help herself, and refuses to take action in any direction that might improve her situation.
Her body is very weak from the last few years of barely eating and mostly drinking herself into a blackout over and over. She can barely walk and everything hurts because there is no muscle to support her bones.
So this phone call, she seemed to want to talk about how things were better in the lodge she WAS in a month ago, back home (she is now in the city where her kids all live). In the old place, she had a stationary bike set up outside to get exercise (never mind that she couldn't use it in the winter, it was BETTER there).
She had a parking space at the old lodge, where she is now she is on a waiting list but has to park on the street, so in order to go anywhere she has to walk farther, and it's cold and icy. That is a fair point.
She says there is no gym in her building, but I wonder. Most senior's residences have some kind of common room with either a pool table, or a treadmill, or a stationary bike. Maybe hers doesn't.
Every suggestion I had of her checking out drop in centers or the YMCA or whatever cheap gym there might be available was shot down, because "she doesn't join things or go where there are people".
Well, in the end, it's not my problem, and I can't feel overly responsible for her lack of motivation to improve her life. If she's bored and lonely and likely going to be unable to walk in a year if she doesn't do something to stay active, then that's her own decision. She lives in a senior's home full of other people who likely go places and do things with their time, and if she refuses to try to meet any of them, or join any of the local groups or find out about group outings, or ANYTHING, then I guess she can just go nuts on her own, stuck inside her apartment and inside her own head.
I went outside and did the chores, and when my Sweetie got home we got another sled load of fire wood and brought that into the house and my husband started the wood stove with better success and less smoke today.
Then I walked with Wonder around the pasture for awhile, to give her some exercise and stimulation, and for me to get some exercise too.
Then we came in, ate, and watched some "Scooby Doo" and finished the first season. Oddly enough, the last episode was actually a bit compelling.
Getting good sleep.
Not needing to go anywhere today.
I tried to talk with Mom for a while, but she was anxious the whole time about missing supper. She wouldn't miss supper, the people that work there would make sure she got to the table on time, but I know that Mom doesn't have much of a sense of time anymore, so she's never sure what's happening around her.
I did talk with Trainwreck for a good while, and she still sounds sober, but in a way she still sounds like an alcoholic, if you know what I mean. She still has the mentality that somehow she had no power to help herself, and refuses to take action in any direction that might improve her situation.
Her body is very weak from the last few years of barely eating and mostly drinking herself into a blackout over and over. She can barely walk and everything hurts because there is no muscle to support her bones.
So this phone call, she seemed to want to talk about how things were better in the lodge she WAS in a month ago, back home (she is now in the city where her kids all live). In the old place, she had a stationary bike set up outside to get exercise (never mind that she couldn't use it in the winter, it was BETTER there).
She had a parking space at the old lodge, where she is now she is on a waiting list but has to park on the street, so in order to go anywhere she has to walk farther, and it's cold and icy. That is a fair point.
She says there is no gym in her building, but I wonder. Most senior's residences have some kind of common room with either a pool table, or a treadmill, or a stationary bike. Maybe hers doesn't.
Every suggestion I had of her checking out drop in centers or the YMCA or whatever cheap gym there might be available was shot down, because "she doesn't join things or go where there are people".
Well, in the end, it's not my problem, and I can't feel overly responsible for her lack of motivation to improve her life. If she's bored and lonely and likely going to be unable to walk in a year if she doesn't do something to stay active, then that's her own decision. She lives in a senior's home full of other people who likely go places and do things with their time, and if she refuses to try to meet any of them, or join any of the local groups or find out about group outings, or ANYTHING, then I guess she can just go nuts on her own, stuck inside her apartment and inside her own head.
I went outside and did the chores, and when my Sweetie got home we got another sled load of fire wood and brought that into the house and my husband started the wood stove with better success and less smoke today.
Then I walked with Wonder around the pasture for awhile, to give her some exercise and stimulation, and for me to get some exercise too.
Then we came in, ate, and watched some "Scooby Doo" and finished the first season. Oddly enough, the last episode was actually a bit compelling.
