gottawonder

Today I am grateful for:

The grace of others.

I got up, and totally forgot that our pottery communications committee was having an online meeting.

I was texting my friend D about something unrelated, and she mentioned it.

ARGH!

I have NEVER done an online meeting like this, and had no idea how to log on, and by the time I figured it out, I was late.

Late twice, for a project that actually means a lot to me.

So, now I at least put the next meeting into the calendar app on my phone, something I never typically need to do.

The meeting itself was good, people were prepared and we came up with things we needed to have ready for the next meeting, like posting guidelines for our Facebook page.

I felt pretty badly about my performance with this meeting. These other members are very professional people, and are treating this very seriously. I am not used to this level of professionalism, but I need to at least TRY to meet them halfway.

I did some cleaning, a bit in the bathroom, some dusting of the big screen and the area around it, I did some more laundry, I swept, I put away clean dishes, Then I took an old boot mat (one of those thin, low pile ones) that had a curled up spot on each side and cut off the sides to make a smaller rug, and put it back.

I did talk with Sister E for a while. Nothing too dramatic.

I did chores, and it was very nice outside. I had some "extras" like taking Wonder's blanket off, and putting a new salt block out for the goats/ponies (very heavy), and trying to scrape the layer of ice and manure off of the concrete pad that I feed Wonder on when the snow is gone.

I went to see River, and talked a bit with R. She was riding Maverick around the property. He was a bit nervous about my car when I drove in, but he did okay.

River was not really "with me" today, but that might partly have been my mood.

We needed to work on a pattern for an online competition, one that we haven't been working on. If we compete, we will have to video it tomorrow. No pressure, right?

It's a confusing pattern, and my mood and lack of focus meant that we probably didn't do much productive progress.

I really wasn't very happy with our session, but I won't say it was River's fault.

So, that left me feeling like today was pretty shitty. I felt awful about my lack of professionalism at our meeting, and then awful about my lack of competence with that pattern.

Not a great day for feeling like I have my shit together.

My Sweetie made supper (and he washed more dishes), and we talked about our day.

He had kind of a shit day too. Right now, almost everything he's doing is about ordering pipes and related parts for projects, and those are sort of bid on in groups. His job at the moment is to order only one kind of pipe, but today the client made it sound like he should have been ordering this other kind of pipe as well.

It's not his job, but it's not easy telling that to the client, so he had to go back to his own "higher up" and confirm exactly what he was supposed to be doing, and I guess it's up to this "higher up" to figure out whose job it is going forward to order this other pipe.

If it becomes my husband's job, it will require adjusting the estimate and so on, yadda yadda more paperwork.

This particular job (though I don't know how you'd compartmentalize a "job", a particular task? A "file"? An "order"?) has been a giant pain for him all week, and last week too. I don't think there's been clear communication happening between the company and the client.

I did spend some time putting together a rough draft of what we might use as posting guidelines, and sent that on to my friend D to have a look at. I hope I have the right idea.

Then I watched a video R made of the pattern that is so baffling to me, and hopefully it will help me to understand it.

I'm doing my best to not shut down, but to find positive ways of addressing this stuff.