Monday, March 31
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gottawonderToday I am grateful for:
Warmish, melting a bit.
Good sleep.
Getting up in decent time to go to pottery.
The gravel roads were not great today, slushy and muddy, and I fishtailed around on them a fair bit getting to the highway.
Pottery was good. I got there in time to see D (and I saw her later, too). Others were still there.
It was nice bantering with others.
I made one lidded vessel out of raku clay, since we generally do a raku firing in June.
After pottery, I went to D's house for a visit. It was a good visit, but as it often does, it veered into our life experiences, mostly the harder things, and I felt kind of drained afterwards.
I did realize though, that my life has been trying enough, and if things are a little easier these days financially and with my husband being home more, I'm okay accepting it. It's nice to have someone look after you a bit.
The other thing, is that I have been tired for a long time. I don't feel like I had the easiest childhood, and I sort of experienced a LOT of traumatic things via my sisters. Abuse, their addictions, their messy divorces, their poverty and single motherhood...I was surrounded by it, engulfed by it.
I had a not so easy young adulthood too. Some crappy relationships, very poor paying jobs, just crap jobs, small apartments, no car, etc. That was tiring too.
If I indulge my frivolous side a bit, if I give in to my inner child sometimes, if I seem intolerant these days of people's crap, I think it's understandable.
Maybe if I'm fortunate, I'll get to be "younger" as I age, and I can move past all of the things that made me tired.
After visiting with D, I went to get groceries.
I bought a bigger haul this time, but when I do that, we actually HAVE FOOD, instead of running out of everything again right away.
I'm very grateful for being able to get groceries, and to have the physical ability, a car, and so on.
Then I came home, my Sweetie had stayed up to help me put everything away, and he went to bed.
Warmish, melting a bit.
Good sleep.
Getting up in decent time to go to pottery.
The gravel roads were not great today, slushy and muddy, and I fishtailed around on them a fair bit getting to the highway.
Pottery was good. I got there in time to see D (and I saw her later, too). Others were still there.
It was nice bantering with others.
I made one lidded vessel out of raku clay, since we generally do a raku firing in June.
After pottery, I went to D's house for a visit. It was a good visit, but as it often does, it veered into our life experiences, mostly the harder things, and I felt kind of drained afterwards.
I did realize though, that my life has been trying enough, and if things are a little easier these days financially and with my husband being home more, I'm okay accepting it. It's nice to have someone look after you a bit.
The other thing, is that I have been tired for a long time. I don't feel like I had the easiest childhood, and I sort of experienced a LOT of traumatic things via my sisters. Abuse, their addictions, their messy divorces, their poverty and single motherhood...I was surrounded by it, engulfed by it.
I had a not so easy young adulthood too. Some crappy relationships, very poor paying jobs, just crap jobs, small apartments, no car, etc. That was tiring too.
If I indulge my frivolous side a bit, if I give in to my inner child sometimes, if I seem intolerant these days of people's crap, I think it's understandable.
Maybe if I'm fortunate, I'll get to be "younger" as I age, and I can move past all of the things that made me tired.
After visiting with D, I went to get groceries.
I bought a bigger haul this time, but when I do that, we actually HAVE FOOD, instead of running out of everything again right away.
I'm very grateful for being able to get groceries, and to have the physical ability, a car, and so on.
Then I came home, my Sweetie had stayed up to help me put everything away, and he went to bed.
