Wednesday, April 30
Apr. 30th, 2025 11:06 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
gottawonderToday I am grateful for:
Lovely warm weather. Decent sleep.
My family's Facebook page says that Mom has been moved back to the hospital in our family's "hometown". This isn't the worst news, as they think she could be moved, but I worry because I know there's no longer a doctor in this hospital. There is a nurse practitioner.
I hope she is able to overcome the infection and heal. I've been trying not to worry too much, but it's hard not to be worried.
Sigh.
I did talk with Trainwreck, and it wasn't too bad. She wants to get her car safetied so she can drive it in Saskatchewan, but it might be tough (old car).
She is telling me all about how she doesn't understand the specifics of her situation, in terms of what she should be eating since now they told her she has low iron instead of too much iron. She wants to get in to see a doctor but...can't? No one is seeing new patients? She's on a waiting list to see one?
She wants to see a nutritionist, but ....can't?
I don't really understand, and of course I am likely not being told the entire truth. I know that at one point, she was trying to get her medical records released, but couldn't do so until she had a regular doctor who would request the transfer of her records.
So, I don't know. She's been on a list to see a doctor for a while, I'm assuming they helped her with that when she was in the hospital?
Whenever her situations seem convoluted and impossible, I assume it's because she is not telling me the whole truth, and she's making up a bunch of stuff to fill in where it's actually something she hasn't done yet but won't take responsibility.
It bothers me to have her talk for half an hour about how she doesn't have any information about her situation, can't get a doctor, can't see a nutritionist, has no way to get there, mysteriously her friend who was going to take her to appointments is "too busy now to help", and so on.
Well, whatever.
I did chores, took a sled of manure out of the pony/goat pen over to the compost pile, then took three sleds of manure from Wonder's corral out into the bigger pasture to be spread out.
I went to the barn for my lesson, and was once again put in a strange position of no boundaries by R more or less just standing there talking to the person who had a lesson before me WELL into my lesson time.
I was warming up and wondering how I would get R's attention so we could start my lesson because I am PAYING for this time.
Out of frustration I just started working River, and that turned into R just sort of inviting the other rider to watch my freestyle work. I went along with it out of sheer unwillingness to cause a scene, but what a waste of my time and money.
I more or less performed for this other person, which R refers to as "good practice" with very little useful feedback from R, which is what I usually hope to get when I'm showing her my progress.
Well, I guess I at least enjoyed this person's surprise that I was standing on River's back as part of my performance.
After that, R and I worked outside in the arena, breaking down the dressage pattern to get more control from River for turning. That part was useful.
I feel like I need to talk to R about this issue, and this isn't the first time I've felt this way.
Sometimes she makes up for wasted time at the beginning of my lesson by going late, and if I know that's what we're doing then I'm not as worried. I guess it just leaves me feeling anxious about what's happening, and could we get to my lesson?
I'm a little miffed that I am on time for my lessons, ready to work, the horse is tacked up, I am waiting outside the door or warming up, but she's not.
I came home, returned Dandy, and by then my Sweetie arrived at home too.
He cooked and did dishes, and we watched an episode of "Fringe" together.
It sounds like he had a decent climbing session, and he did meet with my friend to give her those building anchors.
Lovely warm weather. Decent sleep.
My family's Facebook page says that Mom has been moved back to the hospital in our family's "hometown". This isn't the worst news, as they think she could be moved, but I worry because I know there's no longer a doctor in this hospital. There is a nurse practitioner.
I hope she is able to overcome the infection and heal. I've been trying not to worry too much, but it's hard not to be worried.
Sigh.
I did talk with Trainwreck, and it wasn't too bad. She wants to get her car safetied so she can drive it in Saskatchewan, but it might be tough (old car).
She is telling me all about how she doesn't understand the specifics of her situation, in terms of what she should be eating since now they told her she has low iron instead of too much iron. She wants to get in to see a doctor but...can't? No one is seeing new patients? She's on a waiting list to see one?
She wants to see a nutritionist, but ....can't?
I don't really understand, and of course I am likely not being told the entire truth. I know that at one point, she was trying to get her medical records released, but couldn't do so until she had a regular doctor who would request the transfer of her records.
So, I don't know. She's been on a list to see a doctor for a while, I'm assuming they helped her with that when she was in the hospital?
Whenever her situations seem convoluted and impossible, I assume it's because she is not telling me the whole truth, and she's making up a bunch of stuff to fill in where it's actually something she hasn't done yet but won't take responsibility.
It bothers me to have her talk for half an hour about how she doesn't have any information about her situation, can't get a doctor, can't see a nutritionist, has no way to get there, mysteriously her friend who was going to take her to appointments is "too busy now to help", and so on.
Well, whatever.
I did chores, took a sled of manure out of the pony/goat pen over to the compost pile, then took three sleds of manure from Wonder's corral out into the bigger pasture to be spread out.
I went to the barn for my lesson, and was once again put in a strange position of no boundaries by R more or less just standing there talking to the person who had a lesson before me WELL into my lesson time.
I was warming up and wondering how I would get R's attention so we could start my lesson because I am PAYING for this time.
Out of frustration I just started working River, and that turned into R just sort of inviting the other rider to watch my freestyle work. I went along with it out of sheer unwillingness to cause a scene, but what a waste of my time and money.
I more or less performed for this other person, which R refers to as "good practice" with very little useful feedback from R, which is what I usually hope to get when I'm showing her my progress.
Well, I guess I at least enjoyed this person's surprise that I was standing on River's back as part of my performance.
After that, R and I worked outside in the arena, breaking down the dressage pattern to get more control from River for turning. That part was useful.
I feel like I need to talk to R about this issue, and this isn't the first time I've felt this way.
Sometimes she makes up for wasted time at the beginning of my lesson by going late, and if I know that's what we're doing then I'm not as worried. I guess it just leaves me feeling anxious about what's happening, and could we get to my lesson?
I'm a little miffed that I am on time for my lessons, ready to work, the horse is tacked up, I am waiting outside the door or warming up, but she's not.
I came home, returned Dandy, and by then my Sweetie arrived at home too.
He cooked and did dishes, and we watched an episode of "Fringe" together.
It sounds like he had a decent climbing session, and he did meet with my friend to give her those building anchors.
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Date: 2025-05-01 05:48 am (UTC)If we begin a ballet class a few minutes late, we end it a few minutes late as well. We pay for the time.
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Date: 2025-05-01 07:49 am (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2025-05-02 05:16 am (UTC)I guess I don't enjoy the ambiguity, not knowing what's going on, and sometimes even me just standing outside of the arena with River waiting for sometimes fifteen minutes for her to be finished.
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Date: 2025-05-02 05:18 am (UTC)Most of the time she does go later with me if we start late, but I don't enjoy the feeling of NOT KNOWING when I'm going to start, or if we will make up the time.
What bothers me about whenever someone stays a while to watch my lesson (doesn't happen a lot, but it happens) is that it turns into me just doing a demo of things for these people, and it doesn't feel like a real lesson.
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Date: 2025-05-02 05:36 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2025-05-04 06:18 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2025-05-04 08:42 am (UTC)I did talk with her on Friday, and started in a very non-threatening way..."Do you need more time with B's lesson, I feel like her lesson isn't finished when I come in".
R responded immediately with acknowledging that she needs to just be firmer with B about wrapping things up in time for my lesson.
I do intend to be a little more vocal if it looks like B is not "done" when I come into the arena, but I also think R will be more aware of it now.
R is generally a very conscientious person, does often make up any lost time at the beginning with time at the end of the lesson.
I'm hoping that this conversation is enough to get R to be firmer.
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Date: 2025-05-05 07:01 am (UTC)