Friday, May 2
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gottawonderToday I am grateful for:
Beautiful weather again today. Around 24 C.
I talked with Trainwreck briefly. I wanted to try to clarify some of her health stuff, and pin down what she's supposed to be doing with doctors/nutritionist, because when she talks with me, she always makes it sound like she has NO IDEA what's happening, NO IDEA how to get an appointment.
A little bit of pointed conversation, and I think she knows exactly what's happening, she just isn't dealing with it.
I talked with Sister S, who had the back surgery. She's feeling better, and has three more weeks of healing before she can look at physiotherapy. She says she has relief from the sciatic pain, and better range of motion. She sounded in good spirits.
As always, the conversation with Sister S pretty much is limited to "everyone is sick/dying". So, we talked about Mom's situation, and everyone else who is on Death's door. Fun for everyone.
I did manage to crowbar the conversation over to at least something less grim, painting the kitchen and some discussion of colors etc.
So, feeling light as a feather after talking about nothing but death and dying and pain and suffering and lack of hospital care and infections and did I mention DEATH...I went outside and did chores.
My husband has been looking at kayaks (I have been making him look at kayaks) because the one we bought for him last year was not what he wanted after all. We'll have to try to sell that one.
It annoys me that when we bought my kayak, which does serve me just fine, he did what he always does. Buys me something "safe" and when it comes to him, he wants to spend the bigger bucks on something about "performance" because somehow he is much more experienced or something.
He's gone out a few times in the last several years, where I went out dozens of times on my own.
I know that if I got vocal, we'd go out and buy me another kayak too, sell the old one. If I feel like bothering.
Instead, we'll likely go somewhere together, he will glide ahead effortlessly on his longer (faster by design) better engineered craft, and I will put twice as much work into the same distance, likely never quite keeping up.
Lets see how angry it makes me.
I do want him to get SOMETHING, though, because he puts it off, and then we don't kayak because he doesn't like the one he has.
He also has a kayak kit, that has sat in the garage for....six or seven years? He wanted to build one very badly, and never gets around to it. I am upset that he won't build it, because it was NOT CHEAP, and at some point the chemicals for coating it are going to go bad. As it is, the kit sits in the middle of the floor in the garage, and you have to step over it to get to anything. For years.
He won't start it because he's afraid of not finishing it. I am bewildered.
HE HAS A KAYAK KIT, but we have to buy him kayaks.
Moving on.
I went to the barn, and River was SO DIRTY. I hope it's pure joy for him to roll in mud.
He was pretty tired from the heat, but we did get something done. I felt out some ideas for a pattern to use within the freestyle using the "street lamps".
The music isn't working. I edited two songs together, but there's too much time dedicated to riding, and not enough time to the ground work Liberty. I need to have more music to give me time for the groundwork.
I stayed to work with Ferrari again, and it was super fun. He's got more energy than River, which means I don't have to put all of my own effort into keeping him going forward, but he's gentle and responsive. There is a woman who owns him, but she lives three hours away and never sees him. So, he's sort of being worked and leased with R, but it's so confusing to me. He's better off just being sold to someone who will use him (if they do Liberty like we do), as his weight is so much better, and he genuinely seems happier doing the kind of work we do at this barn.
After the woman with health challenges left, I did talk to R about setting some boundaries about my lesson time start. She made it sound like it was all the fault of the woman who had a lesson before me, but I gently made it clear that I thought it was her job to enforce lesson duration and promptness.
For now, that's enough to let her know that something needs to change, and I hope it IS enough to make it better.
We also talked about other things, like her own frustrations and concerns with the rescue she works with.
My Sweetie arrived in the truck, which I know he was just driving to charge the battery (we left it sitting too long). He stayed and we all chatted.
Then we went home, put Dandy back, and I ate supper (he had something after work) and we talked more about kayaks.
Beautiful weather again today. Around 24 C.
I talked with Trainwreck briefly. I wanted to try to clarify some of her health stuff, and pin down what she's supposed to be doing with doctors/nutritionist, because when she talks with me, she always makes it sound like she has NO IDEA what's happening, NO IDEA how to get an appointment.
A little bit of pointed conversation, and I think she knows exactly what's happening, she just isn't dealing with it.
I talked with Sister S, who had the back surgery. She's feeling better, and has three more weeks of healing before she can look at physiotherapy. She says she has relief from the sciatic pain, and better range of motion. She sounded in good spirits.
As always, the conversation with Sister S pretty much is limited to "everyone is sick/dying". So, we talked about Mom's situation, and everyone else who is on Death's door. Fun for everyone.
I did manage to crowbar the conversation over to at least something less grim, painting the kitchen and some discussion of colors etc.
So, feeling light as a feather after talking about nothing but death and dying and pain and suffering and lack of hospital care and infections and did I mention DEATH...I went outside and did chores.
My husband has been looking at kayaks (I have been making him look at kayaks) because the one we bought for him last year was not what he wanted after all. We'll have to try to sell that one.
It annoys me that when we bought my kayak, which does serve me just fine, he did what he always does. Buys me something "safe" and when it comes to him, he wants to spend the bigger bucks on something about "performance" because somehow he is much more experienced or something.
He's gone out a few times in the last several years, where I went out dozens of times on my own.
I know that if I got vocal, we'd go out and buy me another kayak too, sell the old one. If I feel like bothering.
Instead, we'll likely go somewhere together, he will glide ahead effortlessly on his longer (faster by design) better engineered craft, and I will put twice as much work into the same distance, likely never quite keeping up.
Lets see how angry it makes me.
I do want him to get SOMETHING, though, because he puts it off, and then we don't kayak because he doesn't like the one he has.
He also has a kayak kit, that has sat in the garage for....six or seven years? He wanted to build one very badly, and never gets around to it. I am upset that he won't build it, because it was NOT CHEAP, and at some point the chemicals for coating it are going to go bad. As it is, the kit sits in the middle of the floor in the garage, and you have to step over it to get to anything. For years.
He won't start it because he's afraid of not finishing it. I am bewildered.
HE HAS A KAYAK KIT, but we have to buy him kayaks.
Moving on.
I went to the barn, and River was SO DIRTY. I hope it's pure joy for him to roll in mud.
He was pretty tired from the heat, but we did get something done. I felt out some ideas for a pattern to use within the freestyle using the "street lamps".
The music isn't working. I edited two songs together, but there's too much time dedicated to riding, and not enough time to the ground work Liberty. I need to have more music to give me time for the groundwork.
I stayed to work with Ferrari again, and it was super fun. He's got more energy than River, which means I don't have to put all of my own effort into keeping him going forward, but he's gentle and responsive. There is a woman who owns him, but she lives three hours away and never sees him. So, he's sort of being worked and leased with R, but it's so confusing to me. He's better off just being sold to someone who will use him (if they do Liberty like we do), as his weight is so much better, and he genuinely seems happier doing the kind of work we do at this barn.
After the woman with health challenges left, I did talk to R about setting some boundaries about my lesson time start. She made it sound like it was all the fault of the woman who had a lesson before me, but I gently made it clear that I thought it was her job to enforce lesson duration and promptness.
For now, that's enough to let her know that something needs to change, and I hope it IS enough to make it better.
We also talked about other things, like her own frustrations and concerns with the rescue she works with.
My Sweetie arrived in the truck, which I know he was just driving to charge the battery (we left it sitting too long). He stayed and we all chatted.
Then we went home, put Dandy back, and I ate supper (he had something after work) and we talked more about kayaks.
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Date: 2025-05-04 06:20 am (UTC)