Wednesday, May 14
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gottawonderToday I am grateful for:
It was a bit cooler today, and a tiny bit rainy. Nice weather overall. The grass and leaves are brilliant emerald green.
I put together some things I need to take with me. Some clothes I'm giving away, trying to decide which pottery to give as gifts (I do this often, so that we are not overwhelmed by pottery). Tomorrow I will pack in earnest and put it into the car (I'm using my Sweetie's main ride, because it has a larger gas tank).
My Sweetie is trying to get the one walker fixed. It's a bit of a rush. If it can be fixed by tomorrow, then I can take it home to give to whomever needs one. If not, it can go another time. It just needs a plastic clip fixed that holds part of the frame together. If one wasn't fussy, it could be fixed with zip ties.
Then I went to see River. I was very pleased to see that he was still pretty clean. Often, if it rains a bit, the first thing he does is rolls in dirt, probably because he doesn't enjoy being wet.
Our lesson was on time (yay!) and we worked on recording some "games" for YELO's virtual competition. We did a "five dollar" class, where you do a fairly simple pattern and try not to drop the bill. I feel like we had an edge because of the texture of the bareback pad and my riding pants are both "sticky".
Then we did a barrel pattern, and managed a canter though it was indoors where there's not much room. It looks pretty awkward on video, but we did it. It requires a lead change, which we haven't done before.
After that, the next rider went in, and I chatted with her Mom. Whenever I see this nice woman, we end up having these big, deep conversations. I was probably a little giddy because I've been so caught up in everything with my Mom, and thinking about the trip home, that I've been kind of compartmentalizing my feelings so that I can function, and once we got talking I was enjoying being able to have positive feelings. I might have been "a bit much", but I also needed it so much; to feel something pleasant.
It's been really hard to allow myself to feel much this week, because everything is so overwhelming.
I haven't even said anything to R or anyone at the barn about Mom, because part of me wants some place where that isn't happening. I know that if I try to say anything about it, I'll cry. It's happened before, but sometimes you just don't want to deal with it.
I was really grateful to River today, for being such a kind and patient partner. He really is.
I came home and pretty much met my Sweetie in the driveway. We let everyone out into their pastures with masks on, and walked around with Roxy.
Then we came in, ate while watching an episode of "Fringe", and went outside to bring everyone in again.
It was a bit cooler today, and a tiny bit rainy. Nice weather overall. The grass and leaves are brilliant emerald green.
I put together some things I need to take with me. Some clothes I'm giving away, trying to decide which pottery to give as gifts (I do this often, so that we are not overwhelmed by pottery). Tomorrow I will pack in earnest and put it into the car (I'm using my Sweetie's main ride, because it has a larger gas tank).
My Sweetie is trying to get the one walker fixed. It's a bit of a rush. If it can be fixed by tomorrow, then I can take it home to give to whomever needs one. If not, it can go another time. It just needs a plastic clip fixed that holds part of the frame together. If one wasn't fussy, it could be fixed with zip ties.
Then I went to see River. I was very pleased to see that he was still pretty clean. Often, if it rains a bit, the first thing he does is rolls in dirt, probably because he doesn't enjoy being wet.
Our lesson was on time (yay!) and we worked on recording some "games" for YELO's virtual competition. We did a "five dollar" class, where you do a fairly simple pattern and try not to drop the bill. I feel like we had an edge because of the texture of the bareback pad and my riding pants are both "sticky".
Then we did a barrel pattern, and managed a canter though it was indoors where there's not much room. It looks pretty awkward on video, but we did it. It requires a lead change, which we haven't done before.
After that, the next rider went in, and I chatted with her Mom. Whenever I see this nice woman, we end up having these big, deep conversations. I was probably a little giddy because I've been so caught up in everything with my Mom, and thinking about the trip home, that I've been kind of compartmentalizing my feelings so that I can function, and once we got talking I was enjoying being able to have positive feelings. I might have been "a bit much", but I also needed it so much; to feel something pleasant.
It's been really hard to allow myself to feel much this week, because everything is so overwhelming.
I haven't even said anything to R or anyone at the barn about Mom, because part of me wants some place where that isn't happening. I know that if I try to say anything about it, I'll cry. It's happened before, but sometimes you just don't want to deal with it.
I was really grateful to River today, for being such a kind and patient partner. He really is.
I came home and pretty much met my Sweetie in the driveway. We let everyone out into their pastures with masks on, and walked around with Roxy.
Then we came in, ate while watching an episode of "Fringe", and went outside to bring everyone in again.
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Date: 2025-05-21 08:26 pm (UTC)