Wednesday, May 28
May. 28th, 2025 11:28 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
gottawonderToday I am grateful for:
Getting some solid sleep since I got back. I don't even know if I had dreams.
To be with our sweet animals.
To be able to get back to eating my normal food again. Eating last week was constant compromises, and it didn't agree with me.
I felt the need to be productive again today. There's so much to be done, and my husband's current schedule means he can't help much right now.
I did MORE laundry, changed the sheets, did the dishes, vacuumed.
I talked to our mechanic about the vehicle we've had sitting there all winter. A while ago he mentioned that a friend of his wants it, but has no money. Well, his friend still has no money. So I told the mechanic that I wanted to take it to an auction and just get RID of it, and now the mechanic says he can just pay for the vehicle and HE will wait for his friend to have money to pay him back. That's fine with me, as long as it's a done deal.
I did a bit of mending on some "chore clothes".
Then I went outside and did chores, and it was HOT outside. Too hot to do much yard work.
I assessed the old picnic table, tried to take it apart, but couldn't get the screws out of the rotten wood. My Sweetie and I have agreed that it is not serving us as a nice table to sit at. It won't hold paint, so constantly looks scabby and awful. Some of the boards are rotten, and the overall table isn't worth replacing them. It also weighs so much that I can't move it to sweep leaves or just to reposition it.
So, we agreed it should go, and we'll look for some other outdoor furniture. I very much want to have some kind of nice sitting area outside, maybe with an outdoor fire pit/chiminea where we don't have to worry about sparks because it will be contained and have a screen.
Then I went to the riding barn, for our lesson today.
My Sweetie popped in to say hi on his way home from work (the barn is not far out of his way), and to trade vehicles with me (I had the truck) so that he could take the picnic table to the dump before it closed.
It was SO HOT. Poor River really didn't want to do much today.
I did spray him with water and gave him some time for it to cool him before our lesson. R is also a good instructor, so I knew she would not make him work hard today.
We did work on an obstacle course, to be recorded for an online competition. I really didn't have time to practice it, or anything. I felt a bit at loose ends, though we have done enough obstacle courses that it wasn't impossible.
We were able to do it at liberty, which is pretty good.
We spent some time afterwards working on our "back", since River is being sticky about that. It's all process, process, process with training.
Then I came home, and then we drove in one vehicle to the mechanic's down the road to bring MY car home, which was there getting tires changed. It's been sitting there all last week.
We came home, ate, and watched an episode of "Fringe".
Then I went back outside, let everyone out into the bigger pastures, and worked more in the garden.
All day I've had moments where I remembered that Mom is gone. I woke up, and then remembered. I got caught up in various tasks, then remembered. It will likely be like that for a long time.
Getting some solid sleep since I got back. I don't even know if I had dreams.
To be with our sweet animals.
To be able to get back to eating my normal food again. Eating last week was constant compromises, and it didn't agree with me.
I felt the need to be productive again today. There's so much to be done, and my husband's current schedule means he can't help much right now.
I did MORE laundry, changed the sheets, did the dishes, vacuumed.
I talked to our mechanic about the vehicle we've had sitting there all winter. A while ago he mentioned that a friend of his wants it, but has no money. Well, his friend still has no money. So I told the mechanic that I wanted to take it to an auction and just get RID of it, and now the mechanic says he can just pay for the vehicle and HE will wait for his friend to have money to pay him back. That's fine with me, as long as it's a done deal.
I did a bit of mending on some "chore clothes".
Then I went outside and did chores, and it was HOT outside. Too hot to do much yard work.
I assessed the old picnic table, tried to take it apart, but couldn't get the screws out of the rotten wood. My Sweetie and I have agreed that it is not serving us as a nice table to sit at. It won't hold paint, so constantly looks scabby and awful. Some of the boards are rotten, and the overall table isn't worth replacing them. It also weighs so much that I can't move it to sweep leaves or just to reposition it.
So, we agreed it should go, and we'll look for some other outdoor furniture. I very much want to have some kind of nice sitting area outside, maybe with an outdoor fire pit/chiminea where we don't have to worry about sparks because it will be contained and have a screen.
Then I went to the riding barn, for our lesson today.
My Sweetie popped in to say hi on his way home from work (the barn is not far out of his way), and to trade vehicles with me (I had the truck) so that he could take the picnic table to the dump before it closed.
It was SO HOT. Poor River really didn't want to do much today.
I did spray him with water and gave him some time for it to cool him before our lesson. R is also a good instructor, so I knew she would not make him work hard today.
We did work on an obstacle course, to be recorded for an online competition. I really didn't have time to practice it, or anything. I felt a bit at loose ends, though we have done enough obstacle courses that it wasn't impossible.
We were able to do it at liberty, which is pretty good.
We spent some time afterwards working on our "back", since River is being sticky about that. It's all process, process, process with training.
Then I came home, and then we drove in one vehicle to the mechanic's down the road to bring MY car home, which was there getting tires changed. It's been sitting there all last week.
We came home, ate, and watched an episode of "Fringe".
Then I went back outside, let everyone out into the bigger pastures, and worked more in the garden.
All day I've had moments where I remembered that Mom is gone. I woke up, and then remembered. I got caught up in various tasks, then remembered. It will likely be like that for a long time.
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Date: 2025-05-29 06:17 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2025-05-29 06:40 pm (UTC)She hasn't been able to have much of a conversation for a few years now, and even though it was good to hear her voice, it was hard to connect with her. In person, she was often in her own world, or sleeping.
I have a few of her things, a few examples of her handwriting (Scrabble scores and grocery lists, a journal that didn't look "personal" but recorded the weather and visitors).
Lots of things make me think of her. I think of her when I see sunflowers, pansies, and poppies (her favorite flowers), something in an especially nice shade of yellow, when I hear old time country music, when I see barn swallows (there's always been a ton of them at the farm), or Morning doves (There was a nesting pair in the tree beside her house in town every year), old farm equipment, just a ton of things.
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Date: 2025-06-02 01:51 am (UTC)