Thursday, June 27
Jun. 27th, 2025 12:48 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
gottawonderToday I am grateful for:
Being able to get up for some appointments in town.
Weirdly enough, even with all my best intentions and not feeling rushed, I still ended up almost being late. It's an affliction.
I did get the tests done, hopefully things are okay, these are just ones my doctor wanted to do because I don't have a baseline for these things.
After the tests, I did go to Winners. This is in a town I don't go to as often, and I USED to shop in this town more, but with pottery being on Mondays, I tend to do my shopping in the town where I do pottery.
I also had a nice burrito, at one of the few places where they do a good job of a vegetarian burrito.
Our multicultural world is fun sometimes. There are people from all over the world that work at this burrito place, the food is not quite Mexican, and they're playing music that sounds Indian.
I do have these moments, where I'm very aware all of a sudden that Mom is gone. Often it is when I'm driving, because of how our mind can drift a bit, we're alone, we're not distracting ourselves.
It was a bit like that being in the clinic for my tests too. It wasn't a hospital, but not far from it, and that made me feel a bit like being in the hospital with Mom. Not necessarily in a bad way, but I will probably never be able to be in a hospital again without feeling that way.
I went home, and had a nap since I hadn't had enough sleep last night.
My Sweetie came home, napped with me for a bit.
Then we watched "Glass Onion", which I enjoyed. Lots of fun.
Being able to get up for some appointments in town.
Weirdly enough, even with all my best intentions and not feeling rushed, I still ended up almost being late. It's an affliction.
I did get the tests done, hopefully things are okay, these are just ones my doctor wanted to do because I don't have a baseline for these things.
After the tests, I did go to Winners. This is in a town I don't go to as often, and I USED to shop in this town more, but with pottery being on Mondays, I tend to do my shopping in the town where I do pottery.
I also had a nice burrito, at one of the few places where they do a good job of a vegetarian burrito.
Our multicultural world is fun sometimes. There are people from all over the world that work at this burrito place, the food is not quite Mexican, and they're playing music that sounds Indian.
I do have these moments, where I'm very aware all of a sudden that Mom is gone. Often it is when I'm driving, because of how our mind can drift a bit, we're alone, we're not distracting ourselves.
It was a bit like that being in the clinic for my tests too. It wasn't a hospital, but not far from it, and that made me feel a bit like being in the hospital with Mom. Not necessarily in a bad way, but I will probably never be able to be in a hospital again without feeling that way.
I went home, and had a nap since I hadn't had enough sleep last night.
My Sweetie came home, napped with me for a bit.
Then we watched "Glass Onion", which I enjoyed. Lots of fun.
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Date: 2025-06-28 06:42 am (UTC)Sometimes it's nice things, like the smell of fresh cut hay that is both a present enjoyment, and a memory of childhood for me. A song, seeing a book I read years ago and remembering where I lived and things I was doing when I read it. After a while, living feels like a loop, constantly being in both the present and the past at the same time.
Too often though, it's memories that are of people and animals that are no longer with us, not all of them straightforward, uncomplicated, guilt free situations.
It weirdly get harder to think of future things, because there is just...soo.. much.. of ... the past.