Monday, August 4
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gottawonderToday I am grateful for:
Though things started off rough, with me waking in a terrible mood, it did get better.
While I was still in bed, my Sweetie kind of flooded me with things we could do today, and I can't even think straight for half an hour after I get up.
I did express a bit of regret that it seems most of our "Long Weekend" was spent working, not enjoying the summer weather (we have so little of it here).
He asked if I wanted to try kayaking at a different lake that we have been to before, and as far as we knew would have lots of water.
I WANTED to, but in my half asleep haze, I was just frustrated, because I knew that today was Monday, and we had to get groceries. I had also made arrangements with our hay guy to go pick up our square bales after 7 pm.
To me, that's already a full, busy day, and I didn't know how we could fit in kayaking at a lake 45 minutes away, and I was very upset because after it was brought up as a possibility, it seemed cruel to also immediately recognize how busy it would make our day if we went, if not impossible.
I wanted to go, so badly.
After shaking the cobwebs and the frustration from my head, I figured that if I wanted to go that badly, we should just do it. Maybe we could just skip getting groceries or something.
So, we rushed to do chores and so on, and just went.
This is a lake that was once a river, so it's long and somewhat narrow, but it would have been one heck of a river in it's day.
It was great. This lake is deep and clean, and there is a proper boat launch so that you don't have to wade up to your knees in slime to get your kayak afloat before getting in.
My arms are finally more used to the paddling movement (it is a bit strenuous the first couple of times) so that part was better too.
We paddled for about an hour and a half, and it was lovely.
Then we went back to town for groceries (town is right on the way home from the lake, so that helped).
It was a bigger haul this time, so good that my Sweetie was there.
We grabbed some food in town, then hauledss to get home and hook up the trailer to go get bales.
We had to be very aware of the rain, because we did not want to get the bales wet on the way home, and it did rain a bit on our drive back from the lake, but our luck held and the rain stopped.
It was pretty straightforward getting our hay, as it was already in the shed at the hay guy's place. Some years we go pick it, which is cheaper for us, but a lot harder.
The hay guy and his daughter helped us load, and it was done pretty quickly.
We got 100 bales, and they are HEAVY this year. I would say close to 70 pounds. It looks like really good, clean hay.
Then we brought it home and stacked it inside our barn, which was a lot more strenuous. My husband did most of the heavy lifting with this part.
It didn't take us too long, thankfully, and the platform he made for the bales should work to keep the bottoms dry.
Then we came in, put the groceries away, and called it a day.
Though things started off rough, with me waking in a terrible mood, it did get better.
While I was still in bed, my Sweetie kind of flooded me with things we could do today, and I can't even think straight for half an hour after I get up.
I did express a bit of regret that it seems most of our "Long Weekend" was spent working, not enjoying the summer weather (we have so little of it here).
He asked if I wanted to try kayaking at a different lake that we have been to before, and as far as we knew would have lots of water.
I WANTED to, but in my half asleep haze, I was just frustrated, because I knew that today was Monday, and we had to get groceries. I had also made arrangements with our hay guy to go pick up our square bales after 7 pm.
To me, that's already a full, busy day, and I didn't know how we could fit in kayaking at a lake 45 minutes away, and I was very upset because after it was brought up as a possibility, it seemed cruel to also immediately recognize how busy it would make our day if we went, if not impossible.
I wanted to go, so badly.
After shaking the cobwebs and the frustration from my head, I figured that if I wanted to go that badly, we should just do it. Maybe we could just skip getting groceries or something.
So, we rushed to do chores and so on, and just went.
This is a lake that was once a river, so it's long and somewhat narrow, but it would have been one heck of a river in it's day.
It was great. This lake is deep and clean, and there is a proper boat launch so that you don't have to wade up to your knees in slime to get your kayak afloat before getting in.
My arms are finally more used to the paddling movement (it is a bit strenuous the first couple of times) so that part was better too.
We paddled for about an hour and a half, and it was lovely.
Then we went back to town for groceries (town is right on the way home from the lake, so that helped).
It was a bigger haul this time, so good that my Sweetie was there.
We grabbed some food in town, then hauled
ss to get home and hook up the trailer to go get bales.We had to be very aware of the rain, because we did not want to get the bales wet on the way home, and it did rain a bit on our drive back from the lake, but our luck held and the rain stopped.
It was pretty straightforward getting our hay, as it was already in the shed at the hay guy's place. Some years we go pick it, which is cheaper for us, but a lot harder.
The hay guy and his daughter helped us load, and it was done pretty quickly.
We got 100 bales, and they are HEAVY this year. I would say close to 70 pounds. It looks like really good, clean hay.
Then we brought it home and stacked it inside our barn, which was a lot more strenuous. My husband did most of the heavy lifting with this part.
It didn't take us too long, thankfully, and the platform he made for the bales should work to keep the bottoms dry.
Then we came in, put the groceries away, and called it a day.
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Date: 2025-08-06 04:55 am (UTC)I'm literally just starting to wake up, I am not really making sense of anything yet, much less in a frame of mind to make a detailed set of choices and decisions about the day...
He comes and sits on the bed and starts talking about all the things we COULD do today, if we just get up and get going and do this, and then this, and this should work if we don't waste time...
I have TRIED to get him to talk with me the night before about things he wants to do the next day, because then I can be more mentally ready for them. No. He chooses to just dump a pile of decisions and options on me the first few minutes I open my eyes.
Then he's all hurt and upset when I react badly, because to him, he's ONLY TRYING TO SEE IF I WANT TO DO FUN THINGS.. or something like that.
I just can't do it. I can't just wake up and leap out of bed and make five decisions about plans before I've even eaten.