Thursday, December 25
Dec. 26th, 2025 03:03 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
gottawonderToday I am grateful for:
Getting decent sleep.
Having a nice start to the day with my Sweetie.
I felt badly that I didn't have anything for him to open today, but as we've discussed, he's very hard to shop for. I told him last week that I didn't have anything, and he didn't care, so I figured let's actually let this just go that way.
He managed to find some very thoughtful things to give me; a few pottery tools, a nice portfolio for storing some of my watercolors, and a nice halter for River since his is wearing out.
Then we did chores, and while it wasn't AWFUL, it's still too cold to bring the goats outside, mostly because they are acclimated now to being in the garage where it's a bit above freezing. I generally take them back outside when the outside temperature is closer to the garage temperature, which should happen this weekend if the forecast is correct.
We did take our time with the goats, and gave them each some time in the garage outside their small pen to stretch their legs a bit, and to give them attention.
Then we went in and made supper. Mostly a somewhat dressier version of what we always eat. My husband made a massive amount of "Christmas salad" which is quasi-tabbouleh, we made various veggies, and wild rice.
One of the hardest things about becoming a vegetarian was how hard holiday eating would be, in terms of feeling like it was a holiday meal without all the meat. THEN, when I gave up sugar and most carbs, well, that was the same feeling again.
Nothing that we eat feels particularly festive, but after a while, you just accept that this is what you eat.
I felt like it was a very nice meal, and it feels good to know that it's good for you too. We used nice dishes so it looked pretty.
We put everything away and played four games of cribbage, and I think I won three of the games, which is nearly unheard of. My husband plays a LOT of cribbage, and he's a very good player, so very rare for me to win that much when playing him.
It was fun. Nice really, just to be at home with just the two of us, even though every year I struggle with the feeling that Christmas "should" be a large gathering with my family, or just some kind of large gathering. Literally every year for a long time now I've struggled with how Christmas is built up with all of these towering expectations..."Decorations, the perfect gifts for everyone, cards, all the parties, bringing the right food, feeling JOY ALL THE TIME, seeing people's babies, all the games, more food" and so on.
I literally just don't even know what I should be feeling anymore, or what I AM feeling.
I enjoy the change of pace where it's okay to just stay home for a week or so, where you get more phone calls and visits with friends, where my husband is home.
I feel like once I got over the hump of expectations, we had a very nice day together.
Now I'm looking forward to seeing some of our friends over the next week or so, and then to the longer days. I really notice by the end of January, and that hope generally gets me through to spring.
Getting decent sleep.
Having a nice start to the day with my Sweetie.
I felt badly that I didn't have anything for him to open today, but as we've discussed, he's very hard to shop for. I told him last week that I didn't have anything, and he didn't care, so I figured let's actually let this just go that way.
He managed to find some very thoughtful things to give me; a few pottery tools, a nice portfolio for storing some of my watercolors, and a nice halter for River since his is wearing out.
Then we did chores, and while it wasn't AWFUL, it's still too cold to bring the goats outside, mostly because they are acclimated now to being in the garage where it's a bit above freezing. I generally take them back outside when the outside temperature is closer to the garage temperature, which should happen this weekend if the forecast is correct.
We did take our time with the goats, and gave them each some time in the garage outside their small pen to stretch their legs a bit, and to give them attention.
Then we went in and made supper. Mostly a somewhat dressier version of what we always eat. My husband made a massive amount of "Christmas salad" which is quasi-tabbouleh, we made various veggies, and wild rice.
One of the hardest things about becoming a vegetarian was how hard holiday eating would be, in terms of feeling like it was a holiday meal without all the meat. THEN, when I gave up sugar and most carbs, well, that was the same feeling again.
Nothing that we eat feels particularly festive, but after a while, you just accept that this is what you eat.
I felt like it was a very nice meal, and it feels good to know that it's good for you too. We used nice dishes so it looked pretty.
We put everything away and played four games of cribbage, and I think I won three of the games, which is nearly unheard of. My husband plays a LOT of cribbage, and he's a very good player, so very rare for me to win that much when playing him.
It was fun. Nice really, just to be at home with just the two of us, even though every year I struggle with the feeling that Christmas "should" be a large gathering with my family, or just some kind of large gathering. Literally every year for a long time now I've struggled with how Christmas is built up with all of these towering expectations..."Decorations, the perfect gifts for everyone, cards, all the parties, bringing the right food, feeling JOY ALL THE TIME, seeing people's babies, all the games, more food" and so on.
I literally just don't even know what I should be feeling anymore, or what I AM feeling.
I enjoy the change of pace where it's okay to just stay home for a week or so, where you get more phone calls and visits with friends, where my husband is home.
I feel like once I got over the hump of expectations, we had a very nice day together.
Now I'm looking forward to seeing some of our friends over the next week or so, and then to the longer days. I really notice by the end of January, and that hope generally gets me through to spring.
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Date: 2025-12-27 06:02 pm (UTC)