Wednesday, January 14
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gottawonderToday I am grateful for:
Good sleep.
A quiet start to the day.
I read over Mom's will document last night, and had no issues with it. Fairly straightforward and clear. So I got my Sweetie to print a copy of it off at work.
I will have to sign the release form in front of a witness that is not family, and either mail it or scan it and email it back to the lawyer.
As I mentioned before, I am feeling lots of strange grief that I wasn't expecting at finishing things up with Mom's estate. There's something of her that is still ending as we close up her accounts and disperse her assets that is I suppose the "legal entity". It means that there will be no more mail or bills in her name, no more meetings with her lawyer for my sister and brother where they discuss her wishes in the present tense.
There's still energy from her, as she still has influence in the execution of her will that will finish soon.
It's odd.
So I felt weepy all day, though it wasn't horrible sadness, but a sort of grieving.
I called Sister S back today, because I never got a chance to ask her how she's been doing. I haven't spoken with her about herself since before Christmas.
She said she fell in a parking lot today, though she didn't get hurt. She has a lot of trouble walking, and everything outside is icy. I know she still wants to go run her own errands, and who wouldn't.
She's been experiencing the same feelings about Mom's will, and as one of the executors, she says she was still feeling close to Mom in a way these last months as she worked with the lawyers and paid Mom's bills, and tied up the financial details. She too feels that some last thing is ending.
Then I talked with D, partly about her house (she's moving) and then more hopefully than we usually do, about pottery since there is now a woman who is VP of the executive who seems willing to start setting boundaries with S.
D seems to really swing back and forth with being pessimistic and optimistic about things in a big way. She's wanted to cancel our upcoming interdisciplinary craft center get together a few times now, since people were slow to RSVP.
Now she's saying it is worth it just because three "new" pottery people are attending, and that's a big deal since S gives us almost no opportunity to mingle with the new folks (easier to lie to them about the established pottery folks if they never talk with us).
I was willing all along to have it even if only ten people showed up, because it's a start.
Anyhow.
Then after chores and such, I headed to the barn for our lesson.
Once again, our focus was on the process of cues, which is possibly the most basic but most important thing when working with a horse.
River did pull/rush again to the right, and this has become an odd issue that is confusing for me, as today he did not seem stiff in that side of his body or have problems bending on a smaller circle, so now has it become behavioral?
I gave R two of the mugs (the ones that turned out, haha) for her and her daughter L as late Christmas gifts, with an IOU for K's pottery item.
She thought they were quite good, so I hope they get used and enjoyed. I worry about about giving people gifts of things I make, in case they aren't to their taste.
Then I came home, feeling kind of emotionally drained after yet another day with a lot of feelings and emotions (not horrible ones, but strong feelings of any kind, even joy, can be exhausting).
My Sweetie had supper ready (yay for Sweetie) and we ate and chatted.
I feel like there's no way for us to make sure he gets enough sleep for work. Half the time I don't get home from the day until 7:30 or 8 pm, which is not unusual, but he should be already asleep by 8 pm in order to get a full night's rest, and we never seem to do it.
Then, he doesn't always fall asleep right away, the cats jump on him because they get fed later, but they won't settle down...I can't help but make some noise, there's always something.
Sigh.
Good sleep.
A quiet start to the day.
I read over Mom's will document last night, and had no issues with it. Fairly straightforward and clear. So I got my Sweetie to print a copy of it off at work.
I will have to sign the release form in front of a witness that is not family, and either mail it or scan it and email it back to the lawyer.
As I mentioned before, I am feeling lots of strange grief that I wasn't expecting at finishing things up with Mom's estate. There's something of her that is still ending as we close up her accounts and disperse her assets that is I suppose the "legal entity". It means that there will be no more mail or bills in her name, no more meetings with her lawyer for my sister and brother where they discuss her wishes in the present tense.
There's still energy from her, as she still has influence in the execution of her will that will finish soon.
It's odd.
So I felt weepy all day, though it wasn't horrible sadness, but a sort of grieving.
I called Sister S back today, because I never got a chance to ask her how she's been doing. I haven't spoken with her about herself since before Christmas.
She said she fell in a parking lot today, though she didn't get hurt. She has a lot of trouble walking, and everything outside is icy. I know she still wants to go run her own errands, and who wouldn't.
She's been experiencing the same feelings about Mom's will, and as one of the executors, she says she was still feeling close to Mom in a way these last months as she worked with the lawyers and paid Mom's bills, and tied up the financial details. She too feels that some last thing is ending.
Then I talked with D, partly about her house (she's moving) and then more hopefully than we usually do, about pottery since there is now a woman who is VP of the executive who seems willing to start setting boundaries with S.
D seems to really swing back and forth with being pessimistic and optimistic about things in a big way. She's wanted to cancel our upcoming interdisciplinary craft center get together a few times now, since people were slow to RSVP.
Now she's saying it is worth it just because three "new" pottery people are attending, and that's a big deal since S gives us almost no opportunity to mingle with the new folks (easier to lie to them about the established pottery folks if they never talk with us).
I was willing all along to have it even if only ten people showed up, because it's a start.
Anyhow.
Then after chores and such, I headed to the barn for our lesson.
Once again, our focus was on the process of cues, which is possibly the most basic but most important thing when working with a horse.
River did pull/rush again to the right, and this has become an odd issue that is confusing for me, as today he did not seem stiff in that side of his body or have problems bending on a smaller circle, so now has it become behavioral?
I gave R two of the mugs (the ones that turned out, haha) for her and her daughter L as late Christmas gifts, with an IOU for K's pottery item.
She thought they were quite good, so I hope they get used and enjoyed. I worry about about giving people gifts of things I make, in case they aren't to their taste.
Then I came home, feeling kind of emotionally drained after yet another day with a lot of feelings and emotions (not horrible ones, but strong feelings of any kind, even joy, can be exhausting).
My Sweetie had supper ready (yay for Sweetie) and we ate and chatted.
I feel like there's no way for us to make sure he gets enough sleep for work. Half the time I don't get home from the day until 7:30 or 8 pm, which is not unusual, but he should be already asleep by 8 pm in order to get a full night's rest, and we never seem to do it.
Then, he doesn't always fall asleep right away, the cats jump on him because they get fed later, but they won't settle down...I can't help but make some noise, there's always something.
Sigh.
