Monday, November 18

[gottawonder]

Today I am grateful for:

Being able to have an unstructured day alone today. I've had a lot of days this year where there's a lot of people around working on the house, my sweetie is home, or I've had things that required going somewhere or doing something specific. Today I was at home alone, which I often need, and didn't have to do anything specific.

I spent some time outside with the ponies and goats, just sitting with them as they ate and petting them. I haven't had that much time just to sit with them. I let them into the little pasture so they could eat the dried grass poking out from the snow. I'm sure they get bored in their smaller corral. There isn't much to do in there.

Then I had a nap, though I think I slept a little too long.

Then I felt like doing a few things, so I changed the water in the turtle tank, did a load of laundry, and started organizing the room upstairs. This room upstairs has most of my clothes in it (I'm intending it to be for only clothes and shoes), and piles of all the towels, sheets, table cloths and curtains that I didn't know what to do with during the house move. This little house has no closets or storage for towels and sheets at all, so everything was just in piles upstairs. We got some Ikea storage shelves upstairs, and I was able to fold up the sheets and towels and curtains and mats and so on and get them out of that room. Then, I was able to fold up things like jeans and sweaters and so on that I had no place to store, set up the shoe racks and get shoes off the floor, and so on. I still have some things laying around, but I can finally see the floor and move around in there.

There are going to be a lot of thing that are too big for me now, but I'm not getting rid of anything until I know I can maintain this weight for a while. It's funny, I kept all kinds of clothes hoping I would lose weight, and now I can wear them all. I hope I don't need my bigger clothes again. I have to try on everything and see what fits and what doesn't, and separate them.

It's funny that my sweetie lost weight this summer too, with all his hard work. He pulled out a shirt that was too big, and had maybe been a little too big before anyhow, and said he was getting rid of it because he "didn't want to maintain two wardrobes". Right? One shirt. Most women I know have mountains of clothes because they changed size and aren't sure if they're going to need it, or typically gain and lose the same ten pounds every year, etc.

I'm grateful to have this room to act as a closet, to give me space to get my clothes out in the open so I can see what I actually have.