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Tuesday, September 28

Today I am grateful for:

Another beautiful, sunny day.

I'm trying to get used to my husband being away at work.  I tried to keep busy, at least.  I cleaned out the wardrobe in our bedroom, found a few really torn up items to cut up for rags, and a few things I know I just don't wear to donate.  I washed the things for donation, and a couple of loads of normal clothes.

I also did some little things, like wiped down the cupboards and some doors, cat litter, that kind of thing.

I went to see River, and that was especially welcome today.  I did chat with R for a while.  I did mostly groundwork with River tonight, and did kind of a trial run with playing music I have picked out for doing a freestyle thingy.  I have to admit, I have no idea what I'm going to DO for that, I'm winging it.  I hope R understands, I just don't want to have to stress over this.  It's meant to be just a fun thing to demonstrate what we've learned.

We did ride a bit, and he seemed better with his left lead tonight.  Whew.  I didn't push him with collection too much, I think he had more than enough of me asking for it over and over again last time because he wasn't really doing it.  Tonight, he gave nicely, and I left it there.

I came home and decided to bring Hans into the main part of the house.  He isn't sore that I can tell, and is leaving his incisions alone.  

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Wednesday, September 29

Today I am grateful for:

More beautiful weather.

That I keep trying to be "alive".  I called my sister S to see how Mom was doing (S is one of the two people in my family appointed to be responsible for decisions made on her behalf).  My sister almost made it sound like they still thought Mom might be going home after being in the hospital.  She was all ambiguous when I asked her point blank if Mom was going to a care home, saying "It's not really up to us (she and my brother), it has to be considered by a panel whether or not she needs to be there". 

 WHAT?  Like they AREN'T going to recommend a care home for a 91 year old woman with zero short term memory,  and very limited mobility? Maybe what my sister is getting at, is that if she and my brother convince this panel that Mom is being well looked after at home, then she should be allowed to live there?  Thing is, she isn't safe at home any more.  Even IF there was someone there with her at night (likely family), no one is capable of lifting her if she can't get out of bed or her chair, or off the toilet. In a care home they have a portable lift. Why would my family WANT to commit to having someone there every night, and would they really be able to make sure someone was there every night?  What about the sometimes long stretches during the day between visitors?  What if she falls down, or can't get off the toilet for three hours?

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