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Friday, August 8
Aug. 9th, 2025 01:24 amToday I am grateful for:
Cool weather, though the humidity made it feel sticky.
Another rough start to the day, which extended for some time, once again prompted by my husband overwhelming me while I lay in bed, not even awake enough to make sense of it.
When will he learn? When will I have a way to stop it?
Then, even when I had gotten some kind of focus, he just states that "he's going to town for the day to get his hair cut and then to go climbing".
I hadn't even SEEN him yet, he got up earlier, did a bit of work, came into the house as I was waking up to announce that he was leaving for the day. I was literally just waking up.
I barely get to see him all week, and he thinks it should be fine for him to just leave for the day to amuse himself.
I already know he's going to help friends on Sunday, so I won't see him then either. We're doing something tomorrow, but out of three days I'm only seeing him for one day? When I see him for about an hour after work all week? Does that seem fair?
Very frustrating, of course it became an argument that resulted him not going anywhere today, but he says he would like to have Fridays to go to the city to climb in the evening.
Sure, I guess he's entitled.
BUT, maybe talk to me so I'm not just waking up to him leaving for the rest of the day?
I don't know. I give up.
The day still proceeded, no matter how pointless and fruitless it felt for me to go on. At this point it felt like just some kind of brutal joke. I just had to live through it, and try again tomorrow.
I did go see River, and that's when I finally felt like the day meant something. Just me and River, River being the most rational being I know at times.
His eye looked good today, and he didn't look sore at the trot in the indoor arena. We worked on our normal stuff, and I did ride a bit today.
R was around, as were her husband K and their daughter L. Nice to see them all.
I went home and did the usual; animals out to graze, pick raspberries, freeze raspberries and bag frozen ones.
We did eat and watch "Gran Turismo" which is based on a true story about how Nissan paired with racing simulator gamers to demonstrate that the simulators were so good that it was plausible to make actual race car drivers out of gamers. Interesting.
Cool weather, though the humidity made it feel sticky.
Another rough start to the day, which extended for some time, once again prompted by my husband overwhelming me while I lay in bed, not even awake enough to make sense of it.
When will he learn? When will I have a way to stop it?
Then, even when I had gotten some kind of focus, he just states that "he's going to town for the day to get his hair cut and then to go climbing".
I hadn't even SEEN him yet, he got up earlier, did a bit of work, came into the house as I was waking up to announce that he was leaving for the day. I was literally just waking up.
I barely get to see him all week, and he thinks it should be fine for him to just leave for the day to amuse himself.
I already know he's going to help friends on Sunday, so I won't see him then either. We're doing something tomorrow, but out of three days I'm only seeing him for one day? When I see him for about an hour after work all week? Does that seem fair?
Very frustrating, of course it became an argument that resulted him not going anywhere today, but he says he would like to have Fridays to go to the city to climb in the evening.
Sure, I guess he's entitled.
BUT, maybe talk to me so I'm not just waking up to him leaving for the rest of the day?
I don't know. I give up.
The day still proceeded, no matter how pointless and fruitless it felt for me to go on. At this point it felt like just some kind of brutal joke. I just had to live through it, and try again tomorrow.
I did go see River, and that's when I finally felt like the day meant something. Just me and River, River being the most rational being I know at times.
His eye looked good today, and he didn't look sore at the trot in the indoor arena. We worked on our normal stuff, and I did ride a bit today.
R was around, as were her husband K and their daughter L. Nice to see them all.
I went home and did the usual; animals out to graze, pick raspberries, freeze raspberries and bag frozen ones.
We did eat and watch "Gran Turismo" which is based on a true story about how Nissan paired with racing simulator gamers to demonstrate that the simulators were so good that it was plausible to make actual race car drivers out of gamers. Interesting.
