Friday, May 6
May. 6th, 2022 11:31 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
gottawonderToday I am grateful for:
Decent weather.
The optometrist office called back to let me know that they are going to get some contacts for me to try.
R asked if I would change my ride time to tomorrow, to give others use of the barn to wash horses etc. for the show they are going to tomorrow.
I will be blunt, today was an angry day for me. A few days ago, my Sweetie said he had symptoms of Covid, and I decided that he should stay at his work apartment to isolate instead of coming home this set of days off. He was supposed to be home Thursday night, but I feel like it is not worth getting sick to have him home for now.
So, that means not spending any time with my husband for a whole month, and nothing is happening at all on the house. Nothing. Since he was last able to do a bit two weeks ago, and will not be home for another two weeks, that means an entire month with nothing happening, right smack at the prime time of the year to get work done.
I know it isn't his fault, but we don't even have things at the right stage, according to my husband, to have something done by a hired person either.
The frustration is driving me insane. I just feel angry. Angry that there isn't anything I can do, angry that I can't even bring in someone to do any work, angry that we are wasting a whole month, out of maybe only five months a year that are useful for outdoor work.
We have so much to do, and my husband nibbles away at it when he is home, but at this rate it will be another year before I can bring in anything from the sea can in the yard full of my art books and so on. My hope was to be able to bring everything in this summer, and get the sea can out of our yard finally. It really doesn't look like it's going to happen. Three years now, this stuff has been in storage.
I got angry at him over the phone, which is pretty pointless and just creates more bad feelings, but what the honest Hell am I supposed to do? Just keep living with no hope of using the addition and basement?
I feel like I spend half of my life being either angry, or tired from resignation.
I get to the point where it feels like nothing I do as far as our house has any effect on whether or not any work gets done on it.
I managed to get to the vet's office and pick up medication for Hollywood (she's on long-term meds for her arthritis) and the special urinary tract food for Jones.
Then I let everyone out into their respective pastures for a while.
I worked on tearing grass out of the garden.
Today I learned that the Empire State building has a spire on top meant to allow zeppelins and dirigibles to dock. Apparently the passengers were meant to exit the vessels via a gangplank. In reality, the winds experienced at those heights meant that mooring would not be practical, and any ushering of passengers absolute nonsense.
https://www.smithsonianmag.com/air-space-magazine/docking-on-the-empire-state-building-12525534/
Decent weather.
The optometrist office called back to let me know that they are going to get some contacts for me to try.
R asked if I would change my ride time to tomorrow, to give others use of the barn to wash horses etc. for the show they are going to tomorrow.
I will be blunt, today was an angry day for me. A few days ago, my Sweetie said he had symptoms of Covid, and I decided that he should stay at his work apartment to isolate instead of coming home this set of days off. He was supposed to be home Thursday night, but I feel like it is not worth getting sick to have him home for now.
So, that means not spending any time with my husband for a whole month, and nothing is happening at all on the house. Nothing. Since he was last able to do a bit two weeks ago, and will not be home for another two weeks, that means an entire month with nothing happening, right smack at the prime time of the year to get work done.
I know it isn't his fault, but we don't even have things at the right stage, according to my husband, to have something done by a hired person either.
The frustration is driving me insane. I just feel angry. Angry that there isn't anything I can do, angry that I can't even bring in someone to do any work, angry that we are wasting a whole month, out of maybe only five months a year that are useful for outdoor work.
We have so much to do, and my husband nibbles away at it when he is home, but at this rate it will be another year before I can bring in anything from the sea can in the yard full of my art books and so on. My hope was to be able to bring everything in this summer, and get the sea can out of our yard finally. It really doesn't look like it's going to happen. Three years now, this stuff has been in storage.
I got angry at him over the phone, which is pretty pointless and just creates more bad feelings, but what the honest Hell am I supposed to do? Just keep living with no hope of using the addition and basement?
I feel like I spend half of my life being either angry, or tired from resignation.
I get to the point where it feels like nothing I do as far as our house has any effect on whether or not any work gets done on it.
I managed to get to the vet's office and pick up medication for Hollywood (she's on long-term meds for her arthritis) and the special urinary tract food for Jones.
Then I let everyone out into their respective pastures for a while.
I worked on tearing grass out of the garden.
Today I learned that the Empire State building has a spire on top meant to allow zeppelins and dirigibles to dock. Apparently the passengers were meant to exit the vessels via a gangplank. In reality, the winds experienced at those heights meant that mooring would not be practical, and any ushering of passengers absolute nonsense.
https://www.smithsonianmag.com/air-space-magazine/docking-on-the-empire-state-building-12525534/
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Date: 2022-05-07 05:14 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2022-05-07 07:35 pm (UTC)I do things like cutting the hedge, hauling away stuff to the dump, working in the garden.